Concerning about my future

[size=12]Hello my name is Dojosamurai. I'm posting this because I think, I have no future. before asking your guys advise I want talk about my history first, I Born in Sapporo, Japan. My Father was running small business, My mother was housewife. when i was 7 my father had to stop working because of economy, after that our family (Father, Mother, Older sister, and me) had to move to my mothers place. when i was 3rd grade my teacher beat me up front of class, because of stupid reason; I was late and my 1st period. since then i was bullied, even i get old these guys were never stop with all the bullying and humiliating me. I try to suicide myself but i had no brave to doing it when i try to do, no one was there for me because even my family was too busy to hold the house. when I was 15 my aunt I never know, invite us to living in U.S, she had business and nice house. my mother had to spend $4000 to going U.S, My father have left in the Japan for money issue because we borrow money to get here. When we first time here in U.S, we had all the dreams and hope, but that soon shudder to piece when my aunt treat my mother like slave, me and my sister and mother had work 12 hours everyday and she pay us like $20 a day. Me and my sister had force to come to her business after school and work until 12am, when we had spent our life there for 3 years, we ran out from her house, it was prison to us, after that i had to move school for 5 times because my aunt pressure my life and my right to education, thanks to that i had to finish my school doing GED. now it has been 2 years my family ran from aunt, I have job and my sister has job, but here is question I'm scared of society, feel like it will abandon me like trash. i feel like i lost all my future and job i'm doing is not even what i wanted, is there any future left in me? [/h]

Short answer to your question, there is always a future for all of us. The question really is what do you want to do with your life? Personally, I focus on the things I love in life. It increases my personal happiness and I mostly ignore everything else, especially the things I have no control over.

There was a time in my life where I considered suicide as well, but the more I thought about it the more I realized it was not an escape from suffering but rather it would be negligence on my part for failing to confront and fix the problems I had. I realized that if there was something that depressed me I needed to figure out if there was something I could do about it or not. If I could then work to fix it, if not then avoid it or ignore it since there is nothing I could do about it anyway.

If you have a love or passion in your life I would work towards a career where you could do that, if possible. If there is no such job you can try to create one if there is a demand for a product or service that you can offer. If you come from Japan I assume you are fluent in Japanese and it seems your English is pretty good as well. Many job sectors have a need for bilingual people and it is important skill set. If you can find a place where people value your skills it will give a sense of fulfillment and give you a promising future.

All you can do is find the strength to work towards your goals. Society can be shitty sometimes, but that doesn't mean that you won't find help every now and then or that you are a failure. You've had it hard and all you can do is just work one day at a time to make things a little better.

Be thankful for anything you have in your life whether it be your health, friends, roof over your head, clothes on your back, food on the table etc. Think about what you want for the future how you could potentially obtain it. Other then that have a little faith in whatever and continue to trek on.

Regardless of a person's situation everyone worries about their future. Life is not easy and sometimes the unknown can be scary, I know I use to have severe panic attacks when I thought I was going to fail college, but I had a second change and things turned out fine in the end. Ended up working my butt off and got through. Just work hard and hope for better days.

You have your whole life ahead of you. You got a shit start but that just means that things can only get better. So, you're not currently working for your aunt? Any minimum wage job would be better than working for your aunt. Work your way up from working in a warehouse or something to fund your education.

I'll just quote Neil deGrasse Tyson for you.

"The problem, often not discovered until late in life, is that when you look for things like love, meaning, motivation, it implies they are sitting behind a tree or under a rock. The most successful people recognize, that in life they create their own love, they manufacture their own meaning, they generate their own motivation.

For me, I am driven by two main philosophies, know more today about the world than I knew yesterday. And along the way, lessen the suffering of others. You'd be surprised how far that gets you."

As for society comes, they will not do nothing for you unless they have a reason to. Give them a reason to be good with you if that's what you're looking for.