Unusual attraction to things you hate?

I didn't know where I should put this. It didn't seem serious was right, and IB seemed a bit off too.

Anyway, I'm a masochist, I love reading about guys getting dominated/wrecked/taken/whatever have you and followed closely by vanilla. As such, I have a strong aversion to seeing female characters mistreated, but lately I keep finding myself reading NTR stuff even though I really get sick reading it sometimes. (I don't complain, I know how annoyed the NTR people are getting at that, I agree, nobody should be coming in just to trash talk something just cus they don't understand it)

Anyway, I am unsure why I suddenly have this..."thing" for reading that lately. The ones especially where the girls were cute/happy/innocent and they wind up totally broken with their life ruined really shock and hurt me, but somehow I keep reading it. How many people do similar things? I wonder if my dark side is waking up these day...

You're becoming desensitised to it by exposing yourself to it, even starting to like it.

I'm definitely becoming desensitized, but I am not liking it for sure. luckily (unluckily?) the first few I read are apparently among some of the most traumatic/cruel so other ones seemed rather tame. To be honest, NTR hits too close to home for me since I have never had a relationship where I didn't get cheated on. That actually might have something to do with my being drawn to it...

I was curious if others go through same sort of thing with things they hate? Is it because I am a masochist at heart or do others find a guilty pleasure in something that normally they wouldn't?

In fighting games, I would always look up hentai of characters I hate or hate facing.

As gravity cat said, you're just becoming desensitized to the genre. I use to only read vanilla works, but now I read anything and everything. You'll basically have a love hate relationship and switch from happy sex to whatever harder core genres you can handle, eventually you may stop feeling the hate for NTR and what not. Basically just go with what you feel and your hentai interests don't have to relate to irl interests. I may love reading about gangbangs, but not my cup of tea to try out.

yeah... I've noticed am significantly more tolerant of NTR then I was at first, I noticed I tend to gravitate towards it after reading a bunch of sweet vanilla. While some scenarios are definitely hot/really intense, not something I'd want either. (Like I am fairly into some pretty hard femdom, or so I thought, but then read some of the REALLY over the top ones on here, I don't think I could go so extreme)

The thing about hatred is that it never lasts forever. I thought I'd hate NTR forever for the longest time until I saw this one doujin by Nagare Ippon. It was fucked up and totally unfair for the MC but I enjoyed the artwork and that's where it started for me. I still don't really go out of my way looking for forced or NTR stuff but when I do happen to read one I usually enjoy it.

A common -phobia treatment is having yourself exposed to the thing you fear over and over again until you aren't frightened any more. Though fear and hatred are obviously not the same thing the whole desensitizing yourself to the thing you fear/hate is pretty similar I guess.

when I really think about it, my very first experience was Golden Boy (manga) and the business guy got NTR'd but I didn't know what the term was at the time or anything, but I quite disliked it. Unfortunately, coming to fakku, my first NTR experiences were Oyster and Erotic Touch. They wrote some reaaaaaaaally horrible works. I kinda felt tricked cus they started off so nice at first, it was only after things got bad I thought I should discover what tag was making them so bad, and that was my introduction to the term NTR. On a bright side though, those being as bad as they were, I wound up reading other works that weren't nearly as bad...as long as it doesn't get too extreme, I'm slowly working up what I can tollerate. Oddly enough, I seem to be perfectly okay if its a girl NTRing a guy or another girl. I just don't like the mind break stuff where they just completely wreck and destroy someones entire life for no real reason, thats just so tragic. (I'm thinking more of the person who was taken, not the MC that was NTR'd)

even the males? or maybe animals like the bear from Tekken?
i guess thats one way to win.

Nah Females only.

I'm almost in a situation like yours, so I'm glad you made this thread... Maybe its because, even though a lot of negative things are happening to the characters its still exciting or makes yourself feel better? Its like subconsciously we think "I'm glad that is not me!"

I was kinda thinking it might be something like that, but in truth while reading it I don't get excited or feel better, or even glad its not me. I've kinda had it rough with relationships and to be honest most of them actually feel like I was NTR'd, if I had a view like a reader does of a hentai, I feel like it definitely would be like one since I've been cheated on so much. I recently have been down (Misaki was kinda nailing me to wall on it in another thread, sadly they weren't mistaken) and I have thought a bit more about it.

I feel like I dislike NTR so much because it hits home to me, even though its a bit extreme. That said, I kinda identify with the hurt and the pain, but more than that, I want to see the kind of extreme things that happened to lose the girl. I realize that nothing even close to that happened in reality, but some part of me is kinda glad that they had to put that kind of extreme circumstance to be stolen, otherwise they would have had a happy and long romance together (usually. sometimes it doesn't take much to steal them...)

Anyway, yeah. It's hard to pinpoint, and as I am getting kinda used to NTR (still skim over them to see how horrible they get before I really read them fully) I think it has more to do with confirming that things like this happen to take away people we love, like there are reasons and choices were made that weren't easy.

Sheesh... That's really tough, I never went through NTR in real life, fortunately. Hang in there Sorreah!

Even if I hate something, I'll still fap to it. (Kim Kardashian and some anime characters for example)

I have the similar thing going on with me. There is this one webshow I absolutely despised, but watched it, not because of trolling purposes (I have more class than that), but I like to listen to something as I do something else, because it makes me feel good. There was one of the hosts, that especially bothered me and four months later I think I fell in love with that guy. I don't know what just happened.