Should I or Should I Not That Is The Question

(Before I continue any further all this is past tense even my thoughts)

Now some might be joking around and say yes! While others might say no due to the friendship at risk and also not wanting to get in a argument/fist fight with the husband and I don't blame either of the two groups. Being in my situation, (at the time that is) that is me (a virgin and) never even touched a woman's ass or set of tits my whole 22 years of living I would want to say YES! Of course I would f*ck the sh*t out of her...but on the other hand my morals go against those sexual urges and prevent me from even doing so if the opportunity is at hand because I would ask myself "What if that was your wife and her close friend f*cking behind your back? How would you feel?". Well...I would feel like I'd beat the motherf*ckers a** and not trust my wife's word at all! So before anyone answers the question put yourself in my shoes.

It happened around a year and half ago where I was working at a fast food restaurant in the flea market (really disgusting but it was the only job I had). I've been working their for almost 4 years dealing with sh*tty people and workers. The job was ,in some way, a family business since most of the workers were related. Well there was this supervisor (white girl who was married to the assistant managers son) who was very...attention wh*re-ish (we'll call her D). Well D and I were on good terms with each other but not her hubsand (we'll call him J). Well at my job there was this one chick that I was trying to get to know more than just an acquittance. So I went to D for some advice and her opinion on the matter and she told me to just strike up a conversation. (keep in mind I was a shy nervous guy...or a b*tch for short when it came to talking to the opposite sex around my age) D told me that I needed to be more assertive and bold. So I tried...and failed. Well D then suggested to talk to her as if I wanted to know her more which worked. Up until it got out of hand when she started telling she was naked etc.

Well her husband (J) found out about it and sent me a text one morning warning me if I didn't back away from his wife that there were going to problems. I explained to him the situation for the conversation we had over text (which he ease dropped into her phone)was nothing more than just sh*ts and giggles. He didn't believe me, so I told him I won't talk to her again if you think we're trying to do something behind your back. Workday comes (Saturday) and me and D end up talking about what J said to me, that morning, during break. Apparently it was all a misunderstanding on J's end. The guy didn't apologize at all...well at least not directly. So the next workday (Sunday) D and I are talking. Well I notice something is on her mind towards the middle of the day and ask "What's wrong?". She shows me a Facebook message from one of her close friends stating that she had sex with her husband. So in short J had sex with D's close friend. I laughed hysterically after the thought of someone sending me a text telling me to not f*ck his wife. I asked D again if everything was alright. She responded with "Yeah, I'm just peachy." ,so I pull her to the side and ask if she needed someone to talk to that I was here. Well it didn't bother her as much as I was expecting it to but the minute she brought up their daughter (Yeah forgot to mention that), that's when tears started to fall.

So we start talking through text messages and we start joking again until the weekend came (that's the only days we work). So on Saturday , towards the end of the day, I saw D and J talking and there seemed to be some type of tension between J and I, so I just ignored it. Well when we D and I were closing our department she started to through some hints my way. Like she started making dirty comments, rubbing her a** on "me" etc. The first thing that popped in my mind was "what the f*ck is she doing?". So before I knew it she starts grinding on me...and I start popping a boner...then she started grabbing my crotch...and then I start playing with her tits...and that's it. I went home with a boner. Now this happened continuously for the next two to three weeks until one day she decided to ask me when we were going to do "it". I won't lie, I saw this coming when we started this...thing. Deep deep down I wanted to but at the same time my morals were preventing me to and to add to the morals, I knew J's family. So I told her it wasn't a good idea because we might get caught to which she replied with "We won't, I'm good at keeping secrets.".

So what happens? We still mess around (no sex) for another week except I ask her to send me some pics of "herself". She does, but no nudes, only her in her underwear and what not. Well the next day (Monday) on my way to school I get a call from D and the first thing she says to me is "We can't be friends or call each other outside of work." and then J takes the phone and starts to tell me if I talk to her or go anywhere near here he's going to kill me. Now the first thing that went through my mind was "Oh sh*t, I was caught! What's gonna happen? How am I gonna get out of this situation? etc." Well I delete the pictures, I erased her number, blocked her and her husband on Facebook and just literally kept to myself until I left that job and got a better job. So in short...I ran away from the problem instead of solving it. I feel like I should have talked it out and apologize but from what I heard (and witnessed) from J's family, he is a hypocrite, the biggest one at that. So I just moved on, learned from the f*ck up I made and now I'm here.

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