Have you ever had a hard time not fapping to your avatar?

I dont think I even got the urge to fap to her, but still doesnt take away from the fact that I enjoyed the doujin featuring her, though I didnt know what the hell was going on for most of it, except that she was a normal salamander/monster thing that was accidentally turned into a humanoid(?) form by the guy that took care of her, and she was always watching him and since he's weak...

Fuck its a lot to explain...