I might be the one of the worst human beings alive.

>It's almost midnight now.
>Got a phone call from a friend
>My best friend (used to, we didn't talk much ever since 2 years ago because she was going in and out of hospital whereas I was busy with my studies) passed away because of cancer.
>Didn't shed a tear when I heard about it.
>Felt bad though for not being able to visit her, last time I went was about 3 weeks ago.
>I may not be able to go to sleep now.

no you're not.

Well, if compared to you then no I am no way near.

My grandmother died and I rarely seen her because of my douche dad.

Yeah you're not bad at all.

Suburban white people need to get out and see the "real" world from an outside perspective!
Watch people from the outside! Be homeless for a year! You'll see evil that will make your mind snap and crumble as you slowly go insane. By that of course I mean you'll see the world in an entirely new light.
Or at least get educated. But not via public indoctrination*school*.
Seriously. This is the worst problem on your mind. You are far from the worst human being alive. You sound like you've got it made financially and emotionally if that's the worst thing on your mind.lol - not a care in the world. lucky bastard.

Earth is another form of hell and men are its demons. You could be idk a rapist or murderer.

Your friend is in the hospital so what?
At least she isn't dead. Visit her tomorrow bring chocolate.

And don't be as much of a downer as I am when I'm feeling black.
Wear a smile, my cannabis is amethyst. Who can make the sun eclipse?

People cope with things like this in different ways. For some people, anxiety and sadness come in waves, and it may hit later. Or you may just feel irritable and generally upset for a while. Some people even experience retrograde amnesia to deal with things like this. You don't really have any control over how your body and mind process outside stimuli.

My grandpa just died Friday and I sobbed uncontrollably for a solid 5 minutes, then I was okay over the weekend. A bit irritable. Trying to be optomistic. I just came home a while ago because another wave of sadness hit again, and I can't deal with being around so many people right now. -shrug-

He got a phonecall that his best friend passed away due to cancer.

Oh shit. I should really read these (not skim) before posting.




If its any consolation to op I felt nothing at my grandmothers funeral last month.
While you cry at your friends funeral you will know you are human. Lucky you.
Your friend is probably in a better place. Celebrate the alleviation of her suffering. If she's out there somewhere in the astral I highly doubt she wants to look down at misery, death should be a happy occasion! Celebrate the life of the person in question, say your goodbyes - then go get drunk to deal with the emotions buried deep within, or in your case pouring out.

Way to fuck up!
^_____^

Saw both of my grandpas dead and went to their funerals.

Didn't shed a tear. Barely even felt sad, just more bored.

Not heartless enough.

heartless enough?

Not appropriate.

Who do yiu think you are? You're nobody.


Ot, it's alrights devs.... these things happen.

It's simply a demonstration of how temporary things are. Life, relationships, friends, the world- it doesn't last.

Nothing is forever.


Don't worry about it.

Your post gave me cancer

Not even close to being the worse human being alive. Try killing people for money, then you'll be getting somewhere.