Mahou's Haven

The ones with fillings and French Cruller with Honey-sugar glaze =L The French name is more fancy though "Roussette"

YOU'RE MAKING ME HUNGRY DX

lol, I seem to have that habit. Even when people come over to visit me, it's a good bet they'll flip on the food channels.. so it's fairly natural for me to think about food a lot. Those do sound like an excellant choice though Neo. Now I wish I had some of them.

Hahaha. I think I'll head out and buy some tomorrow. Donuts~ Donuts~ Suwii-to Do-na-tsu~

Anything new?

haha, well since it's been awhile, you may not know.. recently my brother got in contact with me. It's been years and years.. tbh, I was starting to give up on seeing him ever again. But around christmas time he showed up on my doorstep and we were able to be around each other for awhile.

That made me pretty happy. He's a little worse for wear since I saw him last, but when he realized I'm still the same person he's always known, you could see some hope in his eyes. It was a great feeling. Presently I'm doing everything I can to help him get past some of the issues he's facing.

I dunno if I will succeed, but I can tell it means the world to him that I'm trying.

Wow, that's one heck of a Christmas miracle ;A;

I wish you the best of luck and don't doubt success, believe in it and don't give up Maho :3 I know you can do it!!

I know right?!

Thanks for the vote of confidence. It's tough task, given my own struggles, but I am doing what I can to believe in it. I have to, if not for me, for him. He expressed to me that when he came to see me, he didn't know what to expect, and wasn't even convinced it would do much good.

Still, he came to me, and I can tell he's grateful to have someone to turn to. It kinda blows me away. I've purposely stayed somewhere he could reach me if needed, thinking he might have need of me one day. To actually have it happen.. it's like a TV special or something. lol

However, with that said, it's clear I have to be the strong one, the one that believes things will work out, cuz there is still a lot of defeat hanging over him. And as I said, that's tough.. but it's something I must fight for, at least until he's confident enough to fight for himself again.

I'm glad to hear that. He reached out for you because he knows deep inside him that he can believe in you. That's why you're the one that needs to stay strong and show him that you really can be his guiding light.

Just showing isn't enough though, you have to stand firm and prove it with honest feelings. We both know that there's nothing else that could top the smiles of others. So give it your all and reach out for it :3

Good thoughts, and quite right.

So, how about yourself Neo? I know yours won't be a miracle meeting or anything like that, but what's new for you?

Hmm... I've sorted a lot of stuff out, my thoughts, my stress, my problems but mostly, my feelings. So I'm feeling really great. I just need to achieve what I have to achieve now hehe.

Aside from that, nothing that I can think of..

Well that's great news though. Sorting such things out takes time, and is a pretty emotional experience every time one must do it. Even if should you have to do it again in the future, I'd say that's a mile stone. What are your goals?

Hehe, I'd rather keep that personal dohoho ;3

And yeah, it took a lot of time and I had the help of a psychologist lol.

I see. Well, that's fine with me. ^^ It's great you got so much help though, and you do seem a lot more cheery than the last time we spoke. You've always got such deep thoughts, but I've noticed you can get a little bogged down in them at times.

Of course, so can I, so I'm just as guilty of that, but I guess that's why I understand what an achievement that is for you. Congrats. ^^

Haha, I just might tell you in private if I catch you on MSN someday.
Haha, really? I'm glad then, it's thanks to a special someone for being fun and honest while being dishonest haha.

Thanks :3

So what are you up to?

Up to? Honestly, I'm trying to figure out what to eat..

*stares down at donut*

Well.. besides these. Not healthy. If I fill up on these I'll get all sleepy again. I have some meat in the fridge, but I cooked it a little too long so it's a bit tough. I don't want it atm. >.< But.. I do need to eat a real meal.

Eat one or two >: Make a sammich or salad?

There must be a way to tenderize that meat e_e

Well.. I don't have a tenderizer, and even if I did, my poor counters couldn't take the beating. And I'm afraid if I boil it to soften it down, I'll just over cook it worse and make it tougher. As for a sandwich, I'm outta peanut butter and shouldn't use the last of the mayonnaise yet. ^^;

Yeah, it won't make it better if you boil it... Cut it into cubes or thin slices?

Aaah... Hmmm.... Don't have anything else?

And are you free Sunday?

hmm.. maybe the thin slices will work, but then it'll seem kinda dry. Tips for adding some moisture?

Well I mostly have odds and ends. Was a bit careless with my food budget around new years. Had a few friends over and got catch up in eating all sorts of tasty yet expensive foods. ^^; I'll be fine, I wasn't too overly zealous about it, it's just I forgot a few basics.

I have eggs, flour, sugar, cereal, milk and juice, as well as some potatoes and some random cans of veggies. And I imagine I have a few other items I've forgotten.

As for Sunday, I can't say for certain, but it looks that way.

Soy sauce fixes everything! Or oyster sauce or wasabi or wasabi mixed with soy sauce. Aw crap, hungry now >:

It's pretty late right? I say just go for cereal and fix something up in the morn.

Alright, keep me updated, I might go live :3

Okay cool. Do you know a time roughly?