Ironic

Yesterday I received an award from my college, apparently Im the best student in my career...but somehow I dont feel proud, I cant help feeling empty and i dont know why...ironic how a day that's suppose to be a happy day it isnt, instead I feel like shit.

I won best in show in art school's annual gallery show every year for 3 three years... My work is shit to me.

In middle school i won a "Joan kellerhals memorial award for scholarship" trophy.I don't understand why being that i was a shitty student.But i loved it how i got the trophy and the other students were jealous of me saying "why you?"

Sure is emo up in here.

Sure is Impostor Syndrome up in here.

what did you get as an award? Without something material to go along with it, most awards make you feel meh.

You always want more, don't you.

you'd prefer less?

I'd prefer to be satisfied to an certain extent.