looks like actions do have consequences

well i took a break from middleman business events, but this time, the past has come back to stab me in the gut again...

i went to my class reunion and met up with my former classmates. all was well for me as we had shitloads of fun jamming together until SHE came... my classmate who i loved before also came to the party with my other partner in crime. i had to reject her confession that fateful day to step down for my best friend as i felt she deserves him as he had the looks and the brains any girl would want. seeing her mask a smile to hide her sad face beside him makes it hurt even more, as i could still remember how she cried that day. after our rampancy, several of us settled down and i went to the balcony to clear my head, when she approached me. we had a little talk about the times passed and how he confessed to her during our first year of college, then she suddenly asked out of the blue, "i knew, so why did you step down?" told her i didnt deserve her as i had no attributes that stood. i know i was pushing her away, but it was for the best as the both of them are a couple now and i have no right to mess with that. yesterday, he asked to meet me in the park and when i got there, i received a solid right to the gut and he grabbed me by the collar, asking why is it always me. told him to explain, and turns out that when he tried to take her first time, she refused him, saying she wasnt ready and that she couldnt forget.

seriously... i thought pushing her away and forgetting it all was the right thing to do. hafta admit to the fact that i am really thick towards a girl. i dunno what the hell will happen now, and i havent got a damn idea how to solve this shit.

if she still have felling with you and you still love her why not? cause it will just hurt you three. you know when you love someone you need to be selfish no need to think about other but you and your love.

come on man be confident so what if he has look and brain? as long as you two love each other why bother?

she had lotsa guys gunning for her coz she was a model student and a beauty too... i was one of them, but i was only contempt at watching her as she wasnt yet taken. but the time came that i wanted to go closer, he stepped into the ring.... seriously... well this is the outcome of what i did, and they are now bf and gf. i cant continue to add more pains for myself and for her. she has her life now, and i want to let this go, and i want her to let go too. she has him, so she's already assured for life...

so did she happy know?

i dont know. i keep my distance from her, and when we do meet, she puts up that smile mask....

smile mask doesn't mean happy lol..... if i were you i will go aim for her again.

if she wants you, and you want her... i don't see the problem. if she doesn't really want the one she's with, sucks to be him. sounds a bit cold hearted, but fuck that dude. he's the one who should step down and he knows it, that's why he hit you.

wow never know someone share the same idea as me...

Dude i know how you feel since i would also step down for my best friend, but since the situation is like this you have only 2 options to fix it:
1.You go straight to her and tell her that u dont want any kind of contact with her ever again (that would show your friend how much you care for him)
2.You can accept her and be with her, thou i dont know how your friend would react :/
This way you can save some parts of the whole thing, but if he really is a good friend of your then i would pick the second one. Because if he is your best friend you can explain to him that you stepped down for him and he will accept that if he really thinks much of you as a person and a friend.

there IS that thin red line and im tiptoeing on it at the moment. i was into her for TWO YEARS. also, i reject shit like this when its only to pass time. like i said before, i get to be emo diary for most women... thats the awful truth about me. i'm not a pussy, but half of me is a total pushover. besides, she's on a different level than me, and i believe he'd fit her level. i dont want to see those tears again, EVER. he's just too damn aggressive towards her, not me backing down for friends sake. imagine a race between two people and runner 1 uses a legal move that slingshots him further than runner 2, and that advantage he had was he got to be with her everyday as both of them are the prez and VP of our class and had to work together while both of us had only rare chances of being together like test paper handling. i sorta gave up on her when i realized that she's a level higher, and i furthered it when he just blurted out he likes her. it all came back when both of them appeared at the seaside resort where we were fooling around

Here's what I love about this.

Girl has her pick between two (I know you mentioned several more but for simplicity sake we'll keep it to you and your friend)
Girl makes her decision
Guy thinks her decision is invalid for lame white knight reasons.
Girl picks up the rebound.
Both guys mope about it.

Unnecessary drama-ville.

well thats a few of the gist of what i go through when i am put in the middle of it, acting like i give a damn about their reasons.... it stuck on me...

but here.... she never knew anything of our little competition, and i backed down so that both of them be happy... but it came back to me... after a while.... several users were right... i needed to stop being caught in the crossfire or it will take its toll.... and take it did.... several ways....

This. Does it matter? I mean, who are you to presume you know what is good for people. To be able to presume what makes other people "happy"? It seems to me you actually did the opposite.

And your friend is a rebound anyway you slice it. Who is happy with that?

Hindsight is a bitch, so I can't wail on you for that but for future reference, if a girl makes a decision and chooses you, the only thing you have to worry about is how you feel about her (and vice versa). You're not doing anyone any favors by playing the white knight. In fact, if I was her, I'd be pissed at you.

I shall quote Jack Terricloth:
"Love is real, unstoppable, self interested to the point of malice, not a domesticated creature, actually a wild animal, do not get between it and food."

recommendations? 'coz right now i'm looking at a wall i need destroyed and my usual sledgehammer to try and solve this matter has been disrupted by that certain event in the party. she was supposed to forget.... i had to show burning cold just for her to go to him. she had to come to the party, and had to see my mug again just when she was about to get on.

i have to admit, when i was in the midst of the crossfires, i never flinched at the thoughts of the two parties because i WASNT involved, but rather i was just a spectator and mod for their little tug of war....

^Be a man and accept her damnit....
She loves you and you're being a loser...do not ever compare yourself with other guy and think it's the best for them...they can think for themselves...

If she knew what you did, trying to be some kinda of hero by doing what you thought was best, she probably wouldn't like you anymore. You didn't do the right thing, you just did something stupid that caused drama.

The point of the matter is, if you love her and she loves you, and not your friend. Then trying to push her onto your friend is not only hurting her, especially since she can tell why you did it, but also your friend as she doesn't really love him.

Not to mention that if your friend is willing to accept this, make you give up on your love even though she chose you because he wants to try and make her love him instead, he is not a friend of yours.

This is evident in the fact that he fucking punched you because she loves you.

Not for any other reason, but because she loves you.

That is not your fault, and he is a fucking dick for doing this to you.

You need to understand that love is not possible with just one person in it. You have to have two.

she doesn't want him, she wants you instead. sometimes it's ok to be selfish >.

It's not selfish to love someone....just be true to yourself...
And your friend, if you can call him a friend, is shit...he punch you because he didn't manage to fuck the girl??? Calling him pathetic is obviously an understatement...