Moments that still impact you

Well me and my friends were invited by my main protege's old man for a talk, and seriously, it made me realize something.
it might be a tl;dr for some but i'll type what i can still remember.

"Everything always has an end. everyday you live your life the hourglass of time slowly pours the sand to the bottom of the glass. when all of it runs down to the bottom, your time is up and death will be waiting to take you away. thats the part we all do not want to happen soon, so we live to make a mark on history, signifying that we lived. the life we have here is just borrowed time, and we don't know if HE will decide to take it from us. as for now, you are still studying college, but it's only 45% of the full brunt of the everyday life. once it gets to 50, you already have graduated and will be finding work. while we are still living the borrowed time, there are two roads awaiting us, the long road and the short road. not all of the time taking the short road and being so laid back will bring you anything, but taking the long road and striving hard will get you somewhere, and maybe a successful career. i don't want you boys to be like those young delinquents who only know how to mess around playing computer games and stuff like that. taking the long road will probably be long, but at least in this borrowed time you are able to finish it, and probably having no regrets when facing the gatekeeper in heaven."

well this strengthened my resolve to study harder since i am also in college. how about you all?

When I found out my dad who was supposedly in America working was actually in Manila living normally and that my parents weren't married. Innocence died. Present me formed. To be continued. Roll credits.

just made me realize that being single for a while aint half bad. D:

The thought that there is always someone who is on a better standing than me, working the same thing I work in, makes me strive to surpass them.

Another thing that impacts me is when I realize how much of a loser some people can become by being lazy, so I try to not make their same mistakes.

Hm probably laying in a puddle of my own blood ,and vomit , when an IED on the side of the road flipped the supply vehicle I was in ,and angry locals came running at us to loot the truck...that feeling of fucking anguish stuck with me.

damn shinji... what happened then?

I'm pretty foggy on most things after that I remember one of the less injured guys on my team dragging me behind a building ,and the fact he looked like he was about five seconds away from shitting himself. I passed out from blood loss ,and woke up later in a military hospital. If what they told me is true not long after us another supply truck that was re-routed around a hot zone saw our flipped truck ,and picked us up.We lost 1 man ,and the driver lost an arm.

Drunk 15 yr old asshole that i was, i'd tried to jump a hill with a suped up three wheeler... miss calculated the distance and crash bad enough to leave me in a coma for two weeks and steel screws in my ankles and a brain injury... relearn to walk and speak. jack was the cause.. i love jack.

About ten years ago at a wedding one of my cousins (26yo) made pot-pumpkin cake and was sharing it with another cousin of mine (21yo). Then another one of my cousins (14yo) starts hassling (21yo) for some of the cake. (21yo) says no. (14yo) threatens to tell, so (21yo) lets her have some. Less than an hour later (14yo) is vomiting uncontrollably. Apparently the cake and the Jack that she had been stealing don't mix well with minors. Before the ambulance came to take (14yo) to get her stomach pumped she told everyone that (21yo) made her eat the cake and drink the Jack. So (21yo) gets carted off to jail, despite some protest (mine included). After (14yo)'s Dad threatened to use a lie detector test on her, the truth came out.

This isn't the only major issue I've had with my extended family, nor is this the worst. This was simply the one when I said enough. I haven't spoken to any of them sense.

The death of my uncle has always had an impact on my life. He was like a father to me since he was the one who took care of me when I was a child. One summer break when I was 14-15, I went to visit my uncle for about a week. He would usually be up in the morning before me to cook breakfast so when I woke up and he wasn't there I found it odd. I went to his room to check on him and everything looked normal enough until I realized that he wasn't breathing. I ran over to him but it was already to late to help him. I the ambulance arrived, the paramedics inspected him and came to the conclusion that he had died from a cardiac arrest sometime in the middle of the night. My memories what followed after is foggy but I remember crying for a few days and taking about a month to recover from a depression. Years have passed an I'm over everything already but every so often, I still look back and think about what happened.

being 8 or 9 and in the backseat of a family friend's van and being sexually harrassed by my brother's friend. I was extra uncomfortable and kept telling him to stop touching me, loud enough for the adult in the driver seat to hear. Locked eyes in the rearview mirror, and then they looked away. I remember how uncomfortable their eyes looked. Strike one against adults.

Same friend molested me sometime later and when I told an adult they brushed it off. Again, uncomfortable looks, skirting around the issue. That sealed the deal. Adults are useless, and no one can help me but myself. That sense of loneliness and feeling of helplessness forced me to build my own strength from within - I had to fight my own battles, make my own path, create my own identity, actively choose what defines me.

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moments that still impacts me....

my life. because any moment of my life i remember affects me in some way. any moment i don't.. well i cant say.

Though, big things have happened to me in the past. Its the little things that affected me the most. Because those big things felt so unreal that they didn't register. Though I guess it still affects me subconsciously.

Well I usually am, How I am. Other then the fact that I'm shy IRL and it was worse a few years back.

I dont have a sad story to tell. Like my grandpa's funeral. I cried and all, but it wasnt really me who was the most affected. Being mobbed, though it hurt, it didnt change how i looked at people.

Maybe the fact that I'm used to dealing with these things that when I think back on them I dont think of them as being too bad.

Watching a lecture by Steven Pinker.
I was no longer a strong supporter of Catholicism after that.

well some of his views are seriously controversial... even in the higher ups of the clergy.

Once upon a time, there is a college student with a group of friend to take a diving hobby. When one of the college student jump. He/I saw shark mouth in front of me, then bite my left arm lol. And live happily trauma ever after.

Nothing really in MY life, but probably hearing that Chris Benoit murdered his wife and kid.
Such a great wrestler will now and forever be remembered as a killer.
A goddamn shame.

Accused of rape when i was in 4th grade, Can't even get near a girl without thinking about her filing sexual harassment reports on me.