Nightmare

I Have This Nightmare since I child. I think it can called day dreaming. sometimes when i meet someone nice. I wanna tear their guts out. Its soo godamn freaking, I even think to eat their breast or to rip their neck. this beast in me is growing larger everday.

something like these ( https://www.fakku.net/viewmanga.php?id=4450 ) or these ( https://www.fakku.net/viewmanga.php?id=4446) make worsen the matter . shit like I want kill everyone out of my eyes.

Right now manage to hold the monster. but I dont know for how long?

Medicate.

It's pretty obvious you're suffering from some sort of deep seated frustration/anger.
You should see a counsellor if it gets worse a shrink...

holy fuck!!! a other like me. ah shit my brother i ain't the only freak on the block.

here is my way of controlling my demons, writing the evil away
the story

These impulses are actually considered normal by psychiatrists. Try to just chill out, meditate or something.

Take a gun and shoot yourself... No but seriously i recommend you to go see someone about this, or try some martial arts that focus on the spiritual side of humans, you could even find something to distract you from it, like some art stuff since lot of artist used art to express their anger and rage.

Ahhhh....Yes. I did karate. Im the fucken belt before brown. =( Its definitely a good stress reliever~ I keep saying I wanna join again.But I want a job more. Do something that you dont see as stress. Like draw or take walks whatever~ If it aint workin counselor cause I havn't looked at that hentai yet...=/

already join

Pencak Silat I do this so called Martial art until I can Break some Iron Bar

MMA in this Martial Art I Learn Judo, Jiujitsu, Aikido, Boxing, we even Simulate how to deal with People that Grab a Knife, Fighting Against Masses people.

Honestly Im a walking Killing Machine.

oh I have at least Three Psychiatrist Friend and one doctor, they don't see a problem in me. Oh and about the doctor, he is same as me. a walking Killing Machine (I Learned how to Kill People efficiently from him).

I Guess It can be helped Avoid those kind of hentai. and read more romance story

Then your only option is the gun i mentioned :O

guro?

Porn. And masturbate at least once a day.

Play some violent video games. Takes all the fury out of you.

my drawings and painting made it worst because i can see the evilness of my sick desires. am a photographer by trade..... i like morbid stuff to shoot.

too large to fit

Never tried that before..

i think that what lead him to evil

Why don't you try some underground fight?..Thailand should be the best place for you to killing time..

i had almost the same dream but the chick was rotting under my bed... i did check under the bed after each dream.. damn no necrophilia sex, build a land i call necropolis