Suicide .... you know someone like that?

I've never known someone who has ended their own life, but my boyfriend's aunt did. Even years after the fact, the effects of it still permeates the entire family tree like a poison.

You may be right, this person ( not wishing to mention the gender ) doesn't really have psychological support at home, could be this person is going through some personal changes in his/her life and doesn't really seem to find the answer to cope with it. It could also mean that she/he may be dealing some stuff with other people and she can't find anyone to talk about it.

She/he did tell me his/her problems, but it could also mean she/he was desperate to find someone to write to and in this case she/he found the right one, however I believed that I wasn't enough to help him/her out, that is why I always gave this person many advices on interacting with other people who have similar interests in his/her school and make some friends and not be alone all the time.


However, I still thank you for responding me about my case, I'll try to remember what you wrote.

word up.


i've known of several people who commited suicide. i wasn't close to them, some i never even met. they were relations of people i knew. in several of the cases, it was because of the person i knew that the other killed themself. when they were most vulnerable, and most alone, they were treated extremely poorly by those they tried to turn to. in one case, the 'survivor' was the direct cause. she manipulated and cut the 'victim' off from the rest of the world. she made her totaly dependant, then with held. it was when she tried to do the same to me that i figured out what had happened before. lucky for me, i grew up with rather extreme emotional abuse and was able to see what was happening before it was too late. after comparing that situation to those of some of the other suicides i knew, there were quite a few similarities. that's why it annoys me when i hear people talk about how selfish suicide is, when so often it was the selfishness of others that contributed to a suicide.


one person i only thought of as a passing aquaintance later confessed that if i had not been there, they would have killed themself. this was a few years later, and it suprised me because i mostly thought of them as someone to get high with, or someone to hang out with when none of my other friends were around. we never really talked about serious stuff. we wnt to different schools, and i didn't know any of his other friends(we met at some community event both out parents made us do). he told me that at the time, he was feeling very alone and depressed. just having someone to talk to who was nice to him was what kept him from going through with it.

Me.

I had considered this a lot, and still do.

Probably soon.

I'm actually one of the people who have thought of it due to some family issues but I got over it. Problem was I cared too much. Plain and simple.

Had a cousin of mine who attempted to do it. Felt like everything he did made him go no where or it just backfired. Kinda like how Dave Mustaine felt (Megadeth).(no pun intended seriously)

Also had this one classmate/acquaintance tell me she would cut herself and I have seen the "marks" I say "marks" because she wasn't using anything sharp or sharp enough. Often I would ask her why and she would simply reply: "Because I can." or "I don't know, I just feel/felt like it.".

There was also a time where I met this one girl online saying she was going to commit suicide if the "love of her life" (who really wasn't) doesn't go out with her. I called her and text her until she picked up the phone. Then later on she calls me tells me to stop because it's annoying. Then I got sick and tired of her saying that she was going to kill herself every time some asshole guy turns her down. I'm like: "You know what, fuck it. Kill yourself. I don't care anymore. You bitch and complain about ONE guy who doesn't like you for your personality, but I bet the moment someone who you'll never expect confesses how they truly feel about you. But knowing who and how you are, you're just going to turn them down and give an "excuse" about why it wouldn't work because in reality all you care about is the appearance of the guy you like." Then later on that day she tells me she was lying and was never going to commit suicide or attempt it. Then I got more pissed off with her because...she's stupid.

I have met people who say or claim they were/are going to commit suicide but in the end they just say it for the attention. I've never personally met anyone who has attempted to commit suicide (I know I said my cousin has attempted but we don't like that). If I were to experience losing a family member or real close friend of mine to suicide...I can say that I will feel like sh*t and that I could've been their for him/her...and I would cry.

Me. I have suicidal thoughts constantly. I have attempted it a few times, actually. But I realize how much it would hurt my friends and family and I try to stay strong. Having severe depression can fuck you up, man.

I know 2 people who almost commited suicide. My 5th cousin, he had a love problem, family problem, school problem, social problem and even cyber problem all in the same month (it all happened years ago). So he had a lot of reason to commit suicide. But he suddenly realized that it's not his fault, it's all because of the people who ruined his life. So he swore revenge and already killed 4 people and destroyed 6 families.

Anyway, the other one was me.

Messed up yo. I mean your cousin. How do you know this?

That is certainly one way to get rid of the source of your problems.

Friend of mine was suicidal because she couldnt land the job she wanted. I let her vent and cry for a bit on my shoulder about how she was a failure and whatnot. Backhanded her when she started on the whole "Life is unfair" part. After that she wasnt suicidal anymore and eventually got the job. Few months later she slapped the taste out of my mouth and started the you asshole routine I get quite often from females. Made up that night and been dating ever since.

It was harsh for me to do that but desperate times call for desperate measures.

Hmmm yea close friends and even family have almost gone there.
Some family i didn't care about did go there but that's no biggie.
The neighbors kid came over one night a few weeks ago at like 3am talking about how mad he was at his parents for yelling at him for coming home late and how he wanted to kill himself.
It was so silly how worked up he was over something so small i let him reach into the bin of 9mm i reloaded earlier that day and told him to pick one.
And if he was serious to bring that bullet with him tomorrow and id give him a drop gun, then sent his ass home.
He didn't show so i guess he calmed down and got over it.

Personally I plan to live as fucking hard as i can if not for myself than for the people that aren't even given the choice.
Otherwise my patience for that shit is pretty short.
Il help people work through with their issues when life's problems come at em all at once.
And make sure they see a doctor cause Depression due to chemical imbalance is Legit!

But in the end if your serious, my advice is
"just don't trouble other people on your way out"
Trying to fly from an apartment building and hanging yourself seems more like a guilt trip and a lowdown way to be remembered.
Just go out in the boonies call the cops then off yourself.
That way there's more air for the people with the resolve to live with all life entails to breath.
Nobody iv given this advice to ended up killing themselves so maybe im onto something.

Of course I know this, he's a family member. And he often consults me whenever he has a problem. He use to be a very sweet and humble guy.



Like V say: "Violence can be used for good, Justice!" I know that it's not the right thing to do, but maybe this is the only thing he could do to take back the dignity that he lost a long time ago. And as a member of The *censored* Family, we will support him.