Feeling so insignificantly small and alone

That feeling you get when you're in a crowded place but nobody seems to care about you.
When you try your best to act proud, but it shoots down from right in front of you because you realize that a part of you gets hurt from your pride.
Trying to be so humble yet you don't like people stepping on your toes.
It makes you look like a fool.

How do you stop yourself from acting too proud? To discard any boasts from yourself and become something more tolerable and compassionate?

Then what part of you has to die inside?

Yeah man I feel like you're being way too melodramatic. You're either watching too much anime (and identifying with the more pitiful of the main characters) or you're in the lower end of your teenage years and you're experiencing what we call "angst." Or both.

Anyway cheer up. If you convince yourself you're awesome for long enough, you'll be confident, which makes you awesome. Then you won't be pretending anymore, and people will flock to you.

Then it may be one of those days I'm feeling "angst" experience. I'm reflecting on what all of the bad things that happened in my life and I was just thinking "why me?". This is something that's plagued me for a while now, and I have no solution to look past it, except with generic happiness, but that doesn't last too long for me.

Then i need to find a way to make it die.

The only advice I can really give you about that is life is only as good as you see it. Good shit happens and bad shit happens. To everyone. It's up to you whether you want to focus on the good or the bad. Also if you feel like bad shit keeps happening to you and not other people, maybe it's time to step back and look at what the common factor is (hint: it's you). You're the only one in control of your quality of life. Make it better for yourself, or don't. But feeling so insignificantly small and alone helps no one.

Also if you find that there's not really anything that bad about your life and you still feel like shit about it, you may want to see someone professionally. Depression is a real thing and it's unfortunate.

I know, an I've realized that. It's just really difficult when people think that they know what's best for you, but still end up hurting you more then they thought to.

I had a friend who I was in love with, but she decides to love another when I was away from a month. I had tried everything I could to at least preserve the friendship that her lover had tried to sever, but in the end I was accused of breaking them up. And now, the one I was in love with hates me and avoids talking to me.

Right now, I'm just dwelling on these feelings that I wish I could let go. I feel so hurt right now that it's killing me.

Edit: Felt kind of better letting that out.

Look, I hate to play the "I've had a worse life" game, but your girlfriend cheating on you happens. Your ex hating you for no reason happens. My recent ex was raped a while back (obviously not by me, if any of you need clarification), and I had to work her through that shit. That doesn't just happen. You'll find other people, and as long as you don't hurt yourself, no permanent damage has been done. Count yourself lucky.

Not to be a dick, but stop trying to get people you don't know to feel sorry for you and cheer up. Find someone new and get out there. You've got some great years ahead of you. And know that, yes, high school (and middle school, if you're that young - hopefully you're not) sucks and when you get to college everything will be better.

Also stop talking about what parts of you do and don't need to die. You sound ridiculous. Melodrama helps no one.

Yeah, thanks. I'll try to remember that. I can't be happy all of the time, though, so yeah. I find that very unrealistic.

I guess I really did sound ridiculous. I actually wanted real advice, but I said some thing that I should not have said. I've caused you all inconvenience. I'm sorry.

I think I understand. I'll take your advice and let it soak in for a bit.