Ammy Posts
Fair enough, fair enough.
But I think you are taking my stories to the extreme. Sure, I act differently then others do in relationships. Sure, I think that there is obviously a difference there.
But, frankly, you make it sound like I'm a basket case.
And although you're being helpful, it's not a very lovely feeling.
But I think you are taking my stories to the extreme. Sure, I act differently then others do in relationships. Sure, I think that there is obviously a difference there.
But, frankly, you make it sound like I'm a basket case.
And although you're being helpful, it's not a very lovely feeling.
Lollikittie wrote...
You definitely have an exorbitant amount of intimacy issues. This isn't something that can be solved through seeking advice on an internet forum. I suggest setting up an appointment with a psychiatrist and do some self-analyzing. I'm not saying you're 'mentally ill', but trust me -- The sooner you really sit down, sift through the muck in your mind, and try to get to the bottom of your behavior, the sooner you can have a meaningful relationship with someone. In the meantime, I suggest staying single. I would.. advise against casual sexual relationships [assuming that's what you meant by 'flings']. You've got a lot of complications in your mind, so try to keep your physical life simple, and clean.
I appreciate your honesty, but I don't believe there is anything wrong with me that is that extreme...and I'm not seeking advice from the forum, it was more so a rant and I'd appreciate some input, which is what you gave me.
My situation is all THAT extreme nor that uncommon. But I can see why you would think that I would need to see psychiatric help.
I'm sorry for your loss.
I actually just had to put my kitty, Isabelle, to sleep just before Christmas. We had her for 10 years and she was my cat. She has suddenly gotten sick and nothing we were doing was helping.
I was very sad for a few days following.
And even know, every so often, I think of her and get depressed and really miss her. It will also be a while till I get myself a new kitten to replace her, because right now...that isn't possible and it never will be. But it's still too difficult to bring another one into my life right now.
I actually just had to put my kitty, Isabelle, to sleep just before Christmas. We had her for 10 years and she was my cat. She has suddenly gotten sick and nothing we were doing was helping.
I was very sad for a few days following.
And even know, every so often, I think of her and get depressed and really miss her. It will also be a while till I get myself a new kitten to replace her, because right now...that isn't possible and it never will be. But it's still too difficult to bring another one into my life right now.
Weird...I was actually just discussing mutual masturbation with a Fakker earlier.
I think it would be HOT AS FUCK to watch someone masturbate...man or woman, but preferably man for in person. The idea of watching him and observing what he likes would be incredibly enticing. And, for me, I would want to be doing it back for him to see as well.
Its a tease with so many benefits and promises of what to come :P
I think it would be HOT AS FUCK to watch someone masturbate...man or woman, but preferably man for in person. The idea of watching him and observing what he likes would be incredibly enticing. And, for me, I would want to be doing it back for him to see as well.
Its a tease with so many benefits and promises of what to come :P
iMoloko wrote...
You're literally my twin. I struggle maintaining a relationship because slight nuances in character will start to irk the shit out of me. I feel sometimes I'm scared of stability, complete commitment, and control in my life. I think I'm too chaotic and want to destroy things that are okay in my life. I can't tell you how much I understand how you're feeling!I'm happy to hear there is someone who is dealing with the same thing as me.
I don't necessarily like to destroy things, as I tend to prefer avoiding drama and all that sort of stuff. But I just can never keep anything too stable for too long.
My friend Chern thinks I'm just someone who isn't meant to be settled. Since her and her BF are swingers, they believe that not all humans are meant to be with one person solely forever. But I think she may have pinned me down.
"Maybe you're a free spirit and not meant for monogamy, but you feel somewhat morally obligated to be in a relationship especially when it comes to getting laid, and maybe you know deep inside that you're not really cut out for that mundane cookie-cutter shit that society expects and that it's not what you desire. Or maybe the finalness of a committed relationship makes you worried you'll pick the wrong person and be obligated to them, essentially shutting out everyone because they aren't Prince Charming in a golden carriage. Probably one of those two things."
I'm not saying she's right, but it's got me thinking...
animefreak_usa wrote...
Well that kind of the thing.. your going to get annoyed at him from time to time. Dating and relationships are like that.. im extremely anti social, my other loves people. I can smell stank from a mile away.. she can't smell it. Im slighlty nuts.. she fucking batshit. No one is perfect. No one get along all the times. If you love him then you have to deal with is faults and stuff.. not not then go searching for that man that you can tolerate.I'm not saying I love him, in fact I'm worried if I'll ever get to the point of allowing myself to fall in love with someone.
And I often date around without intending to find that someone I can be with forever, it's just because it's what I want to do and if that does happen, it happens. But I have yet to find it.
Itamekaze wrote...
Aki-chan wrote...
The Randomness wrote...
There should be suggestions for a dating forum, of course, it might become a problem due to the possibility of trolls. So we have to find a way to counter that. How about just doing the work yourself if you're so intent on finding someone through Fakku?
Interesting lets think some good rules for that forum "Fakku Date"
1) Obviously no trolls
......Don't quote me as though I agree with Randomness's idea.
artcellrox wrote...
Oh...my...that's...quite the dilemma you have there, Aki. I'm sorry to hear about it. :(All I can think of is that, even though the guy's sweet, you just don't find that much of a sexual/romantic connection with him subconsciously. You want to believe that he's amazing, and I'm sure he is, but deep down, you may be finding out that he's just not the right one for you specifically. Your 'type', so to speak.
I don't know, really. That's all I can manage to say to all this, and I hope it all works out for you in the end, girl. =w=)b
I was plenty sexually attracted to him when we first started dating, so its frustrating.
The Randomness wrote...
There should be suggestions for a dating forum, of course, it might become a problem due to the possibility of trolls. So we have to find a way to counter that. How about just doing the work yourself if you're so intent on finding someone through Fakku?
Lately I've been tempted more and more to join a local gym. There's a Planet Fitness super close by and they are open 24/7 on weekdays so I'd be able to go in the middle of the night when no one is there (the main reason I don't go is because I don't like when people see me). But I also don't know a thing about working out.
Luckily, my mom just bought a treadmill that we will get tomorrow.
But I still would like to find a way to keep my stomach small and make it tighter.
Luckily, my mom just bought a treadmill that we will get tomorrow.
But I still would like to find a way to keep my stomach small and make it tighter.
kenshinx23 wrote...
none of you guys would have trouble explaining to your friends/family, oh we met on a hentai site? lmaoI actually thought that a few times, when interested in dating someone or when dating someone...if it actually lasted, and we got married and had kids...how the fuck would you explain that?
It would probably just be something funny you'd reveal when they got older.
[font=Tahoma]Well...since I would be the one doing the footjob, and since I've never given one...and would feel shy about doing it, unless he asked of it...I chose hentai only.[/font]
A bit of a rant (sorry for it being SO FUCKING LONG)...feel free to give me some input.
So, I've been in about six relationships as of current. I am in one right now...my first IRL one since July of 2009 and the reason I went so long without one was my own choosing.
In the past, all my relationships were the same...I'd find interest in someone, they'd have interest back, we would date for about a month or two...and then I'd start thinking back to my single life. And wishing for that back. Not even two months in, I'd be single again.
So after dumping my BF in '09, I decided to hold off on dating. Instead I just had little flings and saw people from time to time but it never got serious.
Now, I've been dating this guy since just before Christmas. Everything has been going fine and dandy, but after having a sex dream about my friend's BF last week, I've realized I've been slowly getting aggravated with my relationship.
When he gets too touchy, I get annoyed. When he kisses me and wants to make out, I get annoyed. When he says something that comes across as ignorant (that I would've previously ignored), I get annoyed. I haven't even felt any sort of need to be sexual with him, even though I've been horny as fuck.
I tried putting it off, saying that it will pass. I'll push through it.
But then we went to the club on Saturday night, which we have gone to together before. I know a ton of people there, when he does not...which had me worried because it would mean he'd may not have a good time or may be following me around all night (I like some space at the club).
The night went over fine, but I'd find myself dancing more openly when he would go to the smoking room and I'd be holding back more when he was around. If he'd go to smoke, I would either dance my heart out or seek out my buddy who is a bouncer there to chat for a bit. I even danced in front of my bouncer friend when a good song came on and I was perfectly content dancing my heart out like usual, even though for some reason I was more conscious of my surroundings when the BF was around. (Dancing at the club is a big thing for me and does affect my relationships, so that's why I'm addressing it so much)
After the club his mannerisms continued to annoy the shit out of me. Despite the fact that this guy is INCREDIBLY sweet.
So I contacted my friend Chern, who was the original connection between me meeting my BF.
She says that I "lose interest in guys who like me"...but if that's the case, wouldn't I have lost it long ago? And I've gone after plenty of people who I was quite aware liked me back and would have decently long side relationships with them.
I just think something is wired wrong in my head.
Maybe I'm meant to always be alone, if for a few weeks I can say "This guy is awesome, I'm perfectly content with this relationship and with it lasting" and a week or so later say "I want to explore more and have more ability to act freely without worries".
...I really don't get how my brain works.
It is incredibly frustrating.
And, yes, I did tell my BF about me having doubts so don't think I'm holding any of this back from him and being unfair. I'm trying to work past it, but I keep thinking that by the weekend...I may be single again, which is stupidly frustrating. :/
On top of that, I'm still a virgin. And I feel my pickiness with relationship will only reflect onto my pickiness with giving that virginity away. I'm 21 and at this rate, I'm not sure when or if I'll ever give it up. :/
So, I've been in about six relationships as of current. I am in one right now...my first IRL one since July of 2009 and the reason I went so long without one was my own choosing.
In the past, all my relationships were the same...I'd find interest in someone, they'd have interest back, we would date for about a month or two...and then I'd start thinking back to my single life. And wishing for that back. Not even two months in, I'd be single again.
So after dumping my BF in '09, I decided to hold off on dating. Instead I just had little flings and saw people from time to time but it never got serious.
Now, I've been dating this guy since just before Christmas. Everything has been going fine and dandy, but after having a sex dream about my friend's BF last week, I've realized I've been slowly getting aggravated with my relationship.
When he gets too touchy, I get annoyed. When he kisses me and wants to make out, I get annoyed. When he says something that comes across as ignorant (that I would've previously ignored), I get annoyed. I haven't even felt any sort of need to be sexual with him, even though I've been horny as fuck.
I tried putting it off, saying that it will pass. I'll push through it.
But then we went to the club on Saturday night, which we have gone to together before. I know a ton of people there, when he does not...which had me worried because it would mean he'd may not have a good time or may be following me around all night (I like some space at the club).
The night went over fine, but I'd find myself dancing more openly when he would go to the smoking room and I'd be holding back more when he was around. If he'd go to smoke, I would either dance my heart out or seek out my buddy who is a bouncer there to chat for a bit. I even danced in front of my bouncer friend when a good song came on and I was perfectly content dancing my heart out like usual, even though for some reason I was more conscious of my surroundings when the BF was around. (Dancing at the club is a big thing for me and does affect my relationships, so that's why I'm addressing it so much)
After the club his mannerisms continued to annoy the shit out of me. Despite the fact that this guy is INCREDIBLY sweet.
So I contacted my friend Chern, who was the original connection between me meeting my BF.
She says that I "lose interest in guys who like me"...but if that's the case, wouldn't I have lost it long ago? And I've gone after plenty of people who I was quite aware liked me back and would have decently long side relationships with them.
I just think something is wired wrong in my head.
Maybe I'm meant to always be alone, if for a few weeks I can say "This guy is awesome, I'm perfectly content with this relationship and with it lasting" and a week or so later say "I want to explore more and have more ability to act freely without worries".
...I really don't get how my brain works.
It is incredibly frustrating.
And, yes, I did tell my BF about me having doubts so don't think I'm holding any of this back from him and being unfair. I'm trying to work past it, but I keep thinking that by the weekend...I may be single again, which is stupidly frustrating. :/
On top of that, I'm still a virgin. And I feel my pickiness with relationship will only reflect onto my pickiness with giving that virginity away. I'm 21 and at this rate, I'm not sure when or if I'll ever give it up. :/
Balls. It should be five, not three.
Well, since Waffles and Laggi doesn't post much anymore I'll count them out of this even though we're still close.
Sooo...
1. Tsujoi
2. Gambler
3. Tegumi
Well, since Waffles and Laggi doesn't post much anymore I'll count them out of this even though we're still close.
Sooo...
1. Tsujoi
2. Gambler
3. Tegumi
