Why?

I didn't know where else to turn as everyone in 3D has no more interest in my petty problems. I'm technically homeless, my girlfriend left me, I have no job, and I can't think about anything other than suicide.

People tell me that it isn't an answer to any of my problems, but how would they know that? I've been holding every emoting behind a mask since I was seven. I haven't cried or smiled or laughed in over five years. I don't eat right or sleep, and I feel nothing but hatred towards everyone in life.

Why can they smile while I can't? Why do they get such good lives? Why is it always me who has to be put through so much? Why can't I just fucking cry without being labeled by everyone around me?

So many reasons to look for an easy way out, but I would never be forgiven if I killed myself. So what I want to ask, is why can I not cry. With literally everything wrong with my life, what's so wrong with being sad about it? Why do I have to be the strong one in the family? Why doesn't anyone care how I feel anymore? But most importantly, why is my heart tearing at itself like it wants nothing more than death?

Homeless with a computer? Sell computer

OT: Only pussies take the easy way out.

Selling a computer will not make one enough money to buy living arrangements. They're better off using the comp to make money.

OT:

"Why do they get such good lives?"

It's not a question of WHY. It's a question of HOW. And the answer to that question is, "hard work".

Drop the desperation. You are in a difficult situation, and people who can't rise to the occasion just stumble around making dumb decisions.

From the generality of your post, I would infer that you are halfway there already.
People get like this when they don't properly apply their energies.
Take a step back and assess your actual problems. About a third of them will be circumstance. Another half stem from your personage itself. Remaining, are the things that you cannot control or effect.

Forget the shit you can't control. It's a waste of energy that you immediately need.

Your circumstances are a combination of chance and action. The girl left, meaning you didn't do something AND she wanted to go. Situations like this can be minimized, but they require constant attention. Sort them from the necessary down, and act accordingly.

The remainder are legitimately your problems. Treat them accordingly.
Fuck the mirror. Ignore the person who looks back, and draw the one you want to see. People go on about practice, training, and all kinds of bullshit.
It looks easy because they treat it like it will be.

Analyze failure, and forget it immediately. When you step out tomorrow, you have been the shit from day one. Fuck this world if it doesn't already know.
******

Alternative: Give me specific hopes, fears, and problems. I'll look them over after I've gotten enough sleep to develop full coherency.
(And, if you're homeless, have you applied for a HEN voucher yet? The primary reason homeless people can't get out of poverty is because they're homeless.)

>Hatred towards everyone

There's your problem.

>Haven't laughed or smiled in over 5 years
>Girlfriend left you

So you never laughed, cried, or smiled in 5 years... You had a GF yet you feel hatred towards everyone. Bullshit.

If all else fails, join the army or go to a mexican drug cartel. Panera bread works too.

Perhaps if you stopped hating people, life will get better. Why do you hate people in the first place?

I smell BS.

But anyways, what can I tell you.

When you say technically homeless...you are writing to us from a computer, which necessitates current, which means either your in some random shop and your pumping their electricity or your at your home.

Life has iron boots, and it'll kick you in the gums with it at each occasion it gets.

Buy a helmet, and get rid of the depression attitude, or you won't get anywhere.

Cut your hair, stop tugging at your dick and get a job.

I may sound harsh so here I go
1.Lose the desperation or hatred feeling and grow up.
2. If you are homeless then go to a homeless shelter and search around for available jobs.(you need to earn money the legal way)
3. Join the armed services if everything fails.
4. If you do care about yourself you will not off yourself over some hatred feeling towards your ex and family.

Read more hentai.

Every one I know who earns money didn't really work hard for it they just got lucky they work their ass off to find work to no avail and the work they get is always work they never sought after it just fell in their laps.

You do realize that the more you whinge and think it is "all so hopeless". The more it actually will be? What are you? A child?

*insert ramble about suicide being bad and shit*

Expecting people to help never works, because you have to help yourself. Its a harsh world and believe me, i've been there and had it ALOT worse than you. So quit being a whiny little bitch and fix your own damn problems.

And what did you expect? YOU POSTED THIS IN A FORUM ON THE INTERNET!!! Your either a troll or even if it was true, how and why the fuck should we help you?

Also are you homeless or "technically homeless". Because if you have a roof over your head, you are NOT...FUCKING...HOMELESS! And should get your shit together and get a job. Even if you are working for tips in some shoddy restaurant, you are still making an effort.

If people stop caring about you, they are not worth your time. So your girlfriend left you? so fucking what. My girl left me and was fucking some other guy long before i was aware of it. And left me alone to deal with all the shit i had going on back then. But did i go around whining to people about how bad my life was? FUCK NO, i got the fuck up and continued my life.

Not smiled in over 5 years? Dude first it overrated second how does that make you special in any way?

People with good lives? Dude now you just fucking with me, NO-ONE has a good life and had it handed to them on a silver freakin platter. They worked hard to be where they are, the ones with your so called "good lives" worked damn hard to be where they are. And you should do the same.

Getting labeled for crying? Tell them to fuck themselves and why should you care what people think. Ive never given a single fuck, which is probably what you should start doing.

Now prove me wrong in saying you are just a useless piece of human scum? How have you tried to help yourself? (i do not even count this thread) Tell me and i may actually give you better advice than being pissed off that you would say shit like that in the first place.

Epic life coach speech.

So you broke up with your gf

Tell me how sad it is

What is it that life coaches do, anyway?

As far as I can tell, I just told him to get off his ass and start living.


Why wouldn't we help him? In the least, people need somebody to tell about their problems.

First world problems.

Do you mean not having money to eat, or being dependent on another for shelter?

Among the "first world," the US is one of the shittiest countries around. They do little to nothing for the good of the people, and the citizens are so distracted, they think the shit's normal.

Detroit, Michigan. Atlanta, Georgia. Reno, Nevada. The entire state of Florida.

I'm sure that if I tell you to leave your backyard, you'll make more noise than a goose with a coal up it's ass. But I'm just saying....Look around.

Shit is terrible, man.

Si.

So, why don't you want to kill yourself? You're headed there anyway.
And you're asking the wrong questions.
A lot of shit has to do with where you were born and what family.