FOG's Apartment 2.0 - Return of the Gintama

last summer,because i didn't go back for summer vacation i told my parents that they can visit me during christmas/winter vacation.

but even though i already knew how the education system in japan works and their schedules,my college decides to make the semester end test held starts from 7th January till 18th January for no appearant reason even though it's no longer the post earthquake time like last year where it makes sense to rush the schedule like that and gives the winter vacation only from 27th December till the test time.

because of that,i had no choice and cancel the invitation because if they come at that time,i'm not gonna be able to look after my parents because i'm too focused to study for my test and given the classes that i have in this semester are doubled and without me for the only japanese speaker/reader in the family,i'm gonna neglected them and not gonna pay any attention to them because i'm gonna have to focus on studying.

but....when my mom speaks to me last wednesday and i told her about the situation,she's really mad to me.she did say that they're not gonna be a burden to me during that time and since they already know the city already since they came here last year's summer,i just can't because i know that my father rather to go around outside the house than stay in one place for a long time and even though my mom likes to stay in the house like me,she'll gonna accompany him while going somewhere where most of the places aren't that well with english speaking.i know that they'll probably going to places like shinjuku or something like that but what if they got lost? and even though i can contact my mom's mobile phone but the provider from my country can be a real bitch.

and even though i told them that i'm really worried and i'll go back after the test,my mom got angry and said "there is no child that won't let their parents come to visit their own child no matter what circumstances". then she even asking me is it because i'm hiding something from them that i'm not letting them come to visit? if that's the case,i am not planning to hide anything to them(besides the porn dvd that i own). i even gonna let them to see what i'm doing during the Winter Comiket. i know i'm gonna get yelled because it seems i'm wasting money but because i'm willing to let them see that side of me that i wanted to let them come and letting they have a new year in japan.

the day after that,my mother's still angry and she even told me that my father cried because of what i did.
this is the second time i made my father cried because of what i did.
and since then,i still can't get connected to my parents.
probably it's because of the indonesian mobile phone provider that sucks ass or because how disappointed they are to me that they won't answer my phone.

since that time everytime i entertain myself by watching movies,playing games or studying my favorite subjects,i just couldn't enjoy it to the fullest like i always do since the guilt keep eating me inside my heart.
even after i know what i must do,they still won't hear my apology thus it even makes my fever gotten worse yesterday.even now my throat still hurts because of it.

last monday,i've given task to write an anime script based from the local folklore stories.
and because i'm not that much familiar to japanese folklore stories,i've decided to write one of the indonesian's folklore named Malin Kundang.
for any of you who care enough to read the story and indonesian,you get the idea.
but for any of you who didn't know,go check wiki.