Kiba Eve Fumihiro wrote...
I'm sorry...I'll go to cali in a year or so..I have to do this right... I've decided to bullshit my way through living with these people(until I make enough to move out) and then I move out but stay in the community college and attend it. (Didn't attend it just stayed in my room 5 years)
I'll be able to do school and function as long as I get out and I can. My spirit may be damaged but at this point in my life just having that thought to move to cali was enough to make me feel strong enough to do whatever here that benefits me. If I knew I could go to cali when I graduated high school I would have but no one told me anything, abusive mind twisting parents, just lost children in grown up bodies but I won't take it anymore. I hate them all.
But my siblings and big sister aren't to blame. I will move out and stay here...I never wanted to get mad at my friends I can't believe I'm at this point where I'am and even texted her almost these bad feelings... Once I move out. I won't talk to these mad people ever again. Trying to taint me and fill me with their sadness, anger and negative emotions well I won't be...what bad thing they desperately wanted me to be..I won't be it..
*hugs tight*