Overly stressed.

All kinds of surprises, changes in plans and other unpredictable events stress me, even if they were positive, like a friend suddenly deciding to come over. Strangely I have always liked schoolwork and tests as well as giving presentations, so people occasionally tell me that I must handle stress really well, which is not true at all.

To calm down I put all the lights off and lay down on the bed, sofa or even floor and think about nice things. To someone walking in it would probably look like I fainted, lol.

The branch manager, forced overtime, deadlines and sudden changes on schedule.

1) Nagging
2) Loaning money to people who take too long to repay me (I got to start making them sign a contract).
3) Sexual frustration (I have the heart to get laid, but my brain says I should wait until I'm ready). Yes, I'm a moral fag, sue me.

Coping skills

-Exercise (new)
-Healthy diet (also new)
-Video Games
-Writing
-Learning new things
-Therapy (Talking to family gets boring, but having a therapist is awesome because you can say whatever is on your mind....for a price)

Things that stress me out:

1.) People
2.) College
3.) Life

Things that calm me down:

1.) Drawing
2.) Listening to music.
3.) Mid/long fapping sessions.

1. School work probably
2. mershel..fergle....frubble..grubble..*mutters nonsense* [size=2]Being far away from a certain someone...and my ass being too stupidly shy..[/h]
3. This goddamn kitten~xD

Calming koko:

1. Mmmmmmm...moosics~! *Music*
2. My laptop~
3. Ps3
4. A hobby! O:
5. Games~
6. Baths~ omg they dont make me think of nuthin~! There actually pretty relaxin for me~now that I think about it~xD

This midterm paper.

I rarely get stressed, but when I do, it´s often because of tests or a shit ton of school work :P

studies overall

Step back, take a deep breath. and relax.

all things will pass. things can only stress you out if you let them. life goes on. getting worked up rarely helps anything.

rise above it.

Trying to get people to understand
People who just don't get it.

NO PAIN,NO GAME.

Oh boy, this list would be long if I wrote everything that stresses me much here D: So, I'll just write down the ones that pop into my head first.

- getting pregnant. Sometimes for no reason at all, I start to panic "what about if I'm pregnant now" or something like that. I'm on pills, so the change is very small, but its still there. So when this happens, I can panic about it for a week or 2 and when this happens, I start seeing signs of me being pregnant every where. And then I panic, because I have loads of reasons not to want a child, but zero reasons to want one.
- Getting sick. For some reason sometimes when when something happens in my body that doesnt happen all the time, I start to panic "what's the reason behind this, am I gonna die now" or something like that. I may panic about it for a day or 3, but then at some point I forget it. The last time this happened was today btw.
- My dogs health. Again for no good reason at all it sometimes stresses me alot. I just think that what if he has some illness that I dont just see or something like that.
- Money. Or more like the lack of it. Especially when I have to ask my mom if she can lend me some. She's ok with it, but I feel just awful asking for money from her.
- Being alone for more than a day. I've been like that since i was small, I cant handle being alone, I get the worst panic attacks if I have to go to sleep when I'm alone or only with people I dont feel as "safe" people. And because of that when I was a child the only sleepovers I was at were the ones held at my place.

And the things that calm me down:
- my bf
- doing anything that prevents me from thinking. Like playing games, watching anime/tv, browsing internet...

And the reason why I get so easily stressed is my wild imagination. I must admit that sometimes I dont control it. So for example that second thing that gets me stressed "getting sick". For example once at morning after a really restless night my chest muscles were really sore, most likely because I slept in a really weird position. So I started thinking what different things would cause pain like that and then my mind started racing really bad. I started to think that what if it is something serious. What would happen to me? Would I die? What would then happen to my bf? My family? My doggie? And at that point I'm really scared its something serious.
And when I start thinking like that, I cant stop it unless I stop thinking. So what ever I try to think instead of those bad things, somehow my mind starts racing and soon I'm thinking about the bad things again. Sometimes I can go for months without this, and sometimes it happens more often.

I know that many of you must be thinking "oh god, she needs some medication". Nope. I was on a medication for my panic attacks at some point, but I quit, because when I was on medication nothing and I mean NOTHING stressed me. Not even the money issues we had and almost lost our apartment because of them. I didnt feel stressed at all and imo thats worse than stressing too much.

When I get overly stressed from things I usually listen to Music with really nice bass.
Hardstyle, Rhythm.
Walking in the rain with music.
Sleeping.

Also.




Sounds gross bro.

To some people it is. Just think of it as a worm jacuzzi or something like that. wouldn't it be calming and relaxing.

I would rather not have worms squirm over me while im trying to relax. but i suppose if you like slimy stuff slither on you thats your preference.

............. Whit what? I meant A bath (or jacuzzi). as in cleaning yourself with WATER. where did you get the idea of slim?

Wow. I thought that I had a wild imagination but Damn~~~~. It must be a handful to handle your wild thought everyday.

O_O THIS... ugu this is why if/when I ever have (any ;3;') sex on a regular basis, I'd be worried all the time... I super do NOT want kids either, at least not for a long time.