So I Have a Really Weird Fetish That I Don't Enjoy Having...

Ohhhh.. That's weird... but i'm happy for you that you are happy with you fetish

But that's the thing. I'm really not. :'|

So by the sounds of it, it's just your macrophilia being crossed with your masochist side.. you want to be dominated, but by somebody at least twice your size...
My advice, try to find a different source, then maybe you won't feel so bad.. jabba the hut is a bit of a bad place to be getting your faps from.. google around, see if you can find anything else better :D

hope that helps man

I'm so sorry ... I'm just happy depends what the feeling of other people here...

but I'm so so sorry I'm feel sad now .. I'm so sorry

Well, I suppose if you want to find out why you have this fetish purely from a logical standpoint, you could consider seeing a Behaviorist.

But as your fetish is not a destructive behavior to yourself or others, you could always learn to accept yourself. It may be odd, but odder things happen all the time. You are you, and if you can't find any fundamental issues with your actions, there's no reason why you can't say 'stuff it!' to the finer details and thoroughly enjoy yourself.

Embrace it I guess is the general thought here.

But maybe I read all this wrong.