Tell me about your first love...

You are fairly close to it, I do believe I think highly of myself, but I think it's warranted, I don't believe it goes too far. For some reason I've given people the impression that I don't have feelings, that I'm simply a robot and feelings are for homos. That's really not the case, I just don't let my feelings guide me, ever... I use them to my advantage and hide them when necessary. Yeah, I'm a person and I've had my share of shitty things happen to me, my life isn't all roses and sunshine. That first relationship was probably my best relationship, I've had some horror stories that I could tell you but that's not what this thread is for.

As for your story, I sympathize for you, missed opportunities are among the things i regret the most in my life... would I go back and change them if I could? perhaps some but probably not most of them, as most of those events made me who I am today, and if i may say so myself: I'm pretty fucking awesome due to them.

although i havent been around for as long as you have waar i know i was there when you just started out in the forums, and from day one you were a really helpful guy. in fact, you were the first person in the forums i saw with a unique tag signifying authority... or something, and as such i went to you for advice on the forums.

what im trying to get at is that i know you somewhat deserve your reputation because most of the time your opinionated or headstrong. but i cant say i havent been there before, you get me going about video games and ill rip your head off haha. my judge of character(as effective as they are in forum-related environments) tells me your a pretty wicked guy, you believe in everything you say very strongly... thats the only way to express it lol. its just hard to relate gar waar to deep emotions like this but your right, we've all been down that path before.

i couldnt agree more boss, regrets a funny thing that. you gotta realize that everything you've done up until now has made you what you are. if your the least bit proud of what you've become then youve done pretty well for yourself, thats actually a pretty sophisticated method to test how self-conscious you are. haha

watching Bakemonogatari has made me bump this. I really wish I could go back and watch my first love again, not to do it differently; but to help me remember some of my best days. That feeling you get when you find her; and it works out, the time you spend basking in each others happiness. I know I'm not a child anymore but I still treat love as I did when I was 10 to this day; the greatest feeling on earth.

My first 'love' was a douchebag.

I knew him in Middle School and he was one of those guys that every girl liked. You know, the type that could just basically get whoever he wants. So obviously I wasn't at the top of his list. A few years later, he contacted me via myspace [fuckingmyspace] and wanted to talk, etc. After a few weeks we started dating. Few months later he told me he loved me, so I told it to him back. Everything was honestly fine after that. We talked a lot, we hung out and played games together. After a while he started getting a bit more distant. I later found out [by his own sister] that he's been hanging out at some chick's house [doing god knows what]. I tried to keep an optimistic point of view, but his sister [reliable and trustworthy source] kept telling me they were walking hand in hand around town and in stores. It pissed me off, I didn't even know who the fuck the chick was. We obviously broke up. After getting over him I spoke to him again to see how he was doing, he basically told me he 'strings' chicks along. So that if one relationship goes bad he has always has backup. The chick that he broke up with me for cheated on him [lul]. He tried to be all nice / sweet to me again [I'm guessing to 'string me along'] but stopped talking to him. Idiot.

So it was in the begining of highschool her name was Megan we had all the same class so we talked for about 2 weeks then she asked if id walk her home i said yes. So after a week i built up the nerve to ask her out. So we went out for about 3 months i was her first boyfriend so she was wanting to go slow. Then i started have issues at home and did not know whered id end up so italked to her and broke it off as not suddenly have to leave her. So about a month past and things resolved themsleves and i asked her if shed want to get back together and much to my dismay she said she said no i never pursed why but we were still good friends but i have not talked to her in 2 years it sucks because i know i still love her but im afraid to do anything because i dont want to alienate her.

I used to have a crush on this really fat kid in the 4th grade. I didn't tell any of my friends because I was embarrassed, but I would always try to sit next to him whenever my class went to lunch or to the library. He was just a really funny and goofy kid that made me laugh. Plus we'd always play during recess on the same jungle gym. I never told him I liked him, and we didn't have the same class the next year and the year after that he moved. I wonder if I told him I liked him if that fat, shy, dorky kid would of grown up with more confidence. Or maybe he did fine on his own without the ego boost of someone confessing their love to you.

it probably would have helped him immensely. I know my brother had issues with weight when he was younger but he told me that a girl he really liked told him why people made fun of him and he decided from that point on to lose weight. I guess it takes someone you like to sting you a bit for you to grow.

Great story Waar. I hope the new fakkuzas will read this now.
Im sorry for the necroing this thread, but i had too.

Holy shit, how did you even find this. I kinda want to see her now.

Tons of great stories all around. I wish I had one feel good story of my own, but I guess to me "first love" means that it is returned love. I've been in the "unrequited" section all my life lol, don't see that changing anytime soon. Not that I like anybody in particular now =/. With my luck/personality its pretty much just a dream of a fool.

I suppose I can relate the story of the last girl I liked, since I actually got to know her better. Out of the girls I've liked I was closest to her, and I was destroyed by how badly things just turned out. It probably will sound lame too...so many things I regret.

Lets go back about 5 years. I am a sophmore in high school and generally a student without a care in the world. Spending his afternoons on Ragnarok Online (private server). I had no real affiliations in the game being a low level and I was doing nothing besides just running around leveling and having fun. I met her at a popular training area and we just became quick friends despite her initial silence. She was a bit shy in online games since this was the first one she had played so often times she would reply with "...". Eventually I just kept hanging around until she stopped doing that and we had things in common to talk about, we both played games and loved rpg/strategy games. We also both enjoyed the online game and she even introduced me to some of her other friends. Turns out it was a pretty big guild and one of the major ones on the server. Long story short about the guild, EVERYBODY got on Vent. Me, her, guild leader, other guild members. I made a lot of friends there, and I still talk to a few today XD.

So....after a while I decided to ask her to marry me in game(my god I hate myself right now for having to explain this. ONWARD). I was a stupid kid and this kind of thing is supposed to be FOR FUN. She agreed and I generally just acted as a good friend I suppose. I had a lot of free time so I was always available. I worked hard for major events (birthdays, Christmas, so on) to get certain items she may have mentioned in passing. In the end I suppose it doesn't matter since all those items were returned (albeit unwillingly on my part, I did not want them back.)

I tried to do a lot without ever really knowing how I should have acted, obviously she didn't like me what the hell was I thinking at the time lol. I was upset to the point of tears at one point because the internet would have been cut out and thus I couldn't say hi to her. I also made a few stupid decisions like bringing my computer (desktop portion) when my family had to evacuate due to wildfires. And stayed up late just to get things I thought she might like. For example a rare flower drop that comes from one of the most difficult dungeons...generally has no use besides loot but people sold them for a nice price.

Long story short here are a few facts after a year and a half:
1) My friends that I met in the guild really thought I was a good guy and that it would be good if she just said yes because I was trying so hard (too hard lol). Even now when we all play different games we are pretty supportive of each other.

2) She didn't really like me (OH SHOCKER) And didn't know how to turn me down. She decided to go start dating irl and to be honest she has every right to do that. After not hearing from her for a few days (uncommon) her best friend told me straight out that she didn't like me and she started dating some football guy she has known for a while. It wasn't the nicest of things, but who am I to expect kindness? After all I was just lying to myself the whole time lol.

3) After that whole bit of drama and me just not wanting to speak to anybody (power leveling like a madman). I was tricked into taking back everything I ever gave her because somebody needed to "transfer" items. I created a new character under the name of "Senario" and started anew. I could focus on guild events and pvp. And I did anything I could to keep my mind off it at the time. Besides...I made one of the most Overpowered Battle Professors on the server at the time. :D

5 years later: Although I pop into our old guild vent every so often (college). I do get to talk to all of my old friends, we talk about new things. old things. And so on. I even run into her every once in a while lol, she generally talks almost endlessly about either fun games like Fire emblem, TWEWY, and Persona (I love all those games). Or complains about xx thing that is going on right now...I tend to just listen and try to forget everything and just act nice.

To be honest, I wonder sometimes if I haven't liked anybody in the past 5 years because I just haven't met anybody or that I wasn't willing to get to know somebody again since I always get hurt. It probably is a mix of both but it does suck for me since I tend to love romance in stories, when I read manga I love the romance genre (but not the Harem, Shoujo, and Josei genre). Kind of hard to believe since 70% of romance manga is shoujo but...I do enjoy the Seinen titles the most. Probably because of my age group.

*tableflips* I am always...Disappointed...in what I type...too long to edit and read over again...*checks for spelling*. Done.

Edit: After all this, I'd like to think I'm more mature now. I work hard at school, I have a good group of friends, and I tend to think that long distance/online relationships work out less than half the time.

In other news: I read first love, I hear Utada Hikaru's song "first love" lol. The girls always sing that one in Karaoke in my group of friends. Good song too.

Waar with a block of text lol.

Anyway, my first love started when I created a Friendster account. And, because there wasn't many people has an account, pretty much we just add random people. I bumped into this girl that goes to different school from me. She added me, so I accepted her.

We talk on Friendster, we chat, and I ended up asking for her MSN account. So yeah, we live in the same city btw.

After talking, talking and talking, both of us decided to actually meet up. We're pretty close at this stage, up to the point where we tell our life story and everything. And the same day I net her, I confessed how I felt comfortable talking to her and everything. Anddddd, we ended up going out.

Because it was that period after final exam, so school does not really matter, we skipped school every single day, just to meet up and watch movies, go get some coffee or meals, etc etc, your typical middle school love.

It was going perfectly fine UNTIL I moved to Australia. My dad sent me here because he thought I'd be better off overseas, so yeah, long distance fucks up everything, she cheated on me, not that I blamed her, it was because I moved overseas, or else this wouldn't be happening.

I sometime wish that I can get back together with her, because ever since then, I've never been into a relationship that can make me as comfortable as I was with her, but people move on, so I can only hope. I'm still trying to move on, and this happened around 4 years ago.

[color=red]Funny, my first love was also like this. Same class for 1 year (3rd grade). And I also got bullied at that time, but I managed to hold it. I was the smallest boy back then. And falling in love was a shame for a boy like me. And till middle school graduation, I didn't do anything. She goes onto the town's best highschool meanwhile I managed to enter slightly good highschool.

I had a chance 1 year later, when we accidentally met at my birthday, but I wasted it because I was too scared. I blamed myself badly and that was my darkest years.

I tried to enter this country's top university, hoping I can meet her again. Sadly, altho we managed to enter top 4 university, she entered a different univ.

Sometimes it saddens me when she haunts in my dreams.

I read all your posts,lol no i typed first love on the forums and saw the name waar and thought wtf?

On topic:

I have never been in love before due to my overhelming lust. When i see a normal, cute or hot girl (age 5-40) i rape them on spot. No...Umm... rape them in my fantasy.

Well, my first love was in 7th grade, when I danced with a girl I had known for quite awhile and started to notice her. After our second dance we started going out, and I even started to shave myself and make sure my hair wasn't stupid looking ever since. It was very sweet, and I enjoyed every moment of it, however because we were both bookworms we never went on dates or anything, just the occasional skin contact and hug at school. I thought it would keep going until high school and we'd spend forever together, of course that wasn't going to happen. She broke up with me that summer, I could say it was a combination of she didn't love me that much and she wanted to focus on school work rather than boys.

I regret not doing much with her to this day, and although I do still feel a bit awkward around her, our families are close so I still talk with her often. I guess it just wasn't meant to be...

Now, lemme go QQ in a corner.

My first love is a huge mistake and is so stupid that I bang my head on a wall when I remember it.

2009 /thought he just made it before xDDD

My first real love was a girl named Charlene. She lived in the same area as I did and went to my school. She had a major crush on me and as far as I remember, I reciprocated. Funny thing is, we even planned out our future and held hands constantly, as most 7 year olds do.

Then she moved away, and my second was a girl named Jennifer. She was a year older than I was, we were both in a Speech and Language class and got talking. Well, I say "got talking", I was putting on a "cool guy" front as most chubby Primary School boys with a major crush on a girl does. To me at the time, she was pretty, awesome and I wanted her all to myself. Problem was, she had 5 of us running after her, tails wagging. And she preferred Adam, the obligatory guy in the group who could run like a comet made of butter and was twig-thin. Those 3 years was full of jealousy, I can tell you that. Was actually kinda relieved when she went to Secondary school, finally stopped all the heartache and constant flirting with Adam.

I have her on Facebook. Bitch doesn't remember any of us and she's put on alot of weight. And I mean alot of weight. By the looks of her pictures, the weight gain was quite recent.


Edit:

Lol, -rep. Someone's easily offended.

This will be pretty short.

This was in the first grade when I was 7 years old (1997), I had fallen asleep that day and had woken up to see this girl packing and about to go. When I saw her, it was pretty much first love, through the entire duration of primary school (7 years), I loved her but always failed to ask her out, I was pretty much a dumb ass back then and had no idea that you were supposed to ask her out on a date back then (until later but then things were really awkward between me and her), I still loved her until I gave up 2 years ago, when I found out she got married. My tendency of being way too loyal is a fault I must admit.