what do you do.

when you world is falling down, almost literary, on top of you.


if this topic is better suited for SD feel free to move it.

so past two weeks have been nothing short of the worst days in my life, my dad finds out FINALY that this time his back isisnt getter better, and he can no longer work. [he through it out a few mounths ago] my sisters car starter goes out, 200 bucks out the window, and my dad is drinking again after finaly being dry for six mounths, so naturally my mom goes apeshit, and THEN the iceing on the cake. as me and my dad go to fix my sisters car, whice is about an hour away from the house, a chunk of ice falls off the semi infront of us, and because there was someone right next to us we cant get out of the way. we run it over, oil light starts beeping like nuts and the pressure falls. turns out it punctured the oil pan and the transmission fluid pan. BOOM 400 bucks. that we dont have. so, there goes my .300 whinchester to the pawn shop and our family room tv. and now here we are, with my dad missing in action staying at my aunt who is a drunkard, spending money we dont have, my mom who is having one long nervous break down, my sister who is being her usual bitchy self.

and heres me. caught in the middle of it, about to have my own nervous break down.

so my question is, those of you who have been through similar situations, parents divorcing or somesuch. how do you cope with it? cuase i aint doin so good. the only thing that keeps me going is my writing.

I focus on hobbies I like doing, when I've got the time. I keep up with what I should be doing, and when I've got free time, I leave everything behind and just enjoy what it is I like to do. I stop worrying about life and just spend the moment writing, playing music, drawing, reading, or playing video games. Maybe go for a walk/hike, or a drive and listen to music.

It sucks that life is sort of dreary or down for you now, but just keep doing what you do, and do your best at it.

thats just it. i do that and then in the eyes of everyone else im just slacking off and runing away from life, not trying to cope, or keep myself from "pulling the trigger" so its a lose lose situation here. its like the harder i try the more bad shit keeps happening.

I don't understand how they can say you're running away from anything if you're keeping up with your job/schoolwork/training, and keeping your free time to yourself. You are not the answer to their problems, and it's very shitty that they are trying to force that on you. It seems to me like they are trying to not do what they should be doing. There is a point when you need to tell them that their problems need to be solved by them, not you.

As long as you are keeping your personal life in order, there is no reason you can't spend your free time doing what you want.

It looks like you have a lot on your plate. Shoot if it were me I would run away lol.

But seriously, I would say in times like these, keep active. Try not to think about things to negatively. At the end of the day you have to realize: There is somebody out there who is worse out then me right now. Count your blessings (which I know can be hard right now). Just be aware that there are people in your life whom I'm sure are worried about you.

Not to get religious or anything, but I'll keep you in my prayers ;)

As Winston Churchill once said "Never give in. Never give in. Never, never, never, never--in nothing, great or small, large or petty--never give in, except to convictions of honor and good sense. Never yield to force. Never yield to the apparently overwhelming might of the enemy".

I let time take its course and only act when needed. Sometimes it's better to do nothing but only in some cases.


-Imo

ive honestly thought of running away, many times, the only thing that keeps me from doing so is a promise i made myself a while ago, come hell or highwater i wont give up my dream, but at times like this my depreshen and bi-polar make it near impossible to do anything but get out of bed. but i do. so thats something. but it always has to be everything not something nothing is good enouge. im doing my best to stay the course and try but it seems damn near impossible at times. im just doing what i can do and trying to take it one day at a time but sometimes even that doesint work. it really... god i dont know, id say it sucks but thats just bitching. its life i guess. and what i keep thinking is this is the make or break moment/time that im being tested to see if i can handle life, and more and more im thinking im going to fail at it .

In all seriousness, I cry and hurt myself minimally. I scratch, bruise, and bang my head against stuff. I twist my fingers. It's never to a point where it's really bad such as breaking bones, though.

Lately, I've been doing that and a combination of drinking and making tons of plans to socialize.

thought bout that, infact back when i was.. what sixteen i think? i cut for a while, only problem is it does absolutly nothing to change the sitiuation. sure may make you feel satisfied for some strange reason for a while but then you realise nothing has changed

Yea, I know. It's just I've been trying to deal with what's been going on for months and months now. Continually talking about it and I'm sick of it. There's no way for me to have a solution to a lot of the problems right now, so I'm just waiting.

waiting.. isisnt so good for me. not in this enviroment anyway, tho ive taken steps to at least start fixing my mental state of mind, so i supose thats what counts. tho id like to thank you guys, just really needed to vent somewere sure as hell cant talk to my family right now heh

ps, two more till elite lost.

My condolences.

Families can really suck. :/ Hope it all gets better.

P.S. I know right! After a year I'm finally elite!

only time will tell, we will see in the next week or so.

Karma's a bitch ain't it?

https://www.fakku.net/viewtopic.php?t=54814

I knew someone going to bring that post up sometime in the future. There nothing you can do, but cope. Life suck, but hey it sucks worst. I can list all the shit that i went though, but it help for nothing because it's the past and the present and future is where your focus need to be. Bong hit and a beer can help for awhile, but it time to face the world and eat a shit sandwich and deal. Just go day by day and work to find that happy moment.. or win the lottery and get away from your family.

That's just it, it seems you CAN'T do anything about it.
Life goes on, even if looks horrid.

lol i thought so to, but this has been going on for mouths, i could give you a timeline of how the situation slowly deteriorated, and now its just coming to a head. but gism said, life still goes on. and eventually this will be over wither the outcome is good or bad

I cry a river, dance and sing like crazy, throw stuff on the wall, then I move on. I hope things get better for you.