what do you do.

when you world is falling down, almost literary, on top of you.


if this topic is better suited for SD feel free to move it.

so past two weeks have been nothing short of the worst days in my life, my dad finds out FINALY that this time his back isisnt getter better, and he can no longer work. [he through it out a few mounths ago] my sisters car starter goes out, 200 bucks out the window, and my dad is drinking again after finaly being dry for six mounths, so naturally my mom goes apeshit, and THEN the iceing on the cake. as me and my dad go to fix my sisters car, whice is about an hour away from the house, a chunk of ice falls off the semi infront of us, and because there was someone right next to us we cant get out of the way. we run it over, oil light starts beeping like nuts and the pressure falls. turns out it punctured the oil pan and the transmission fluid pan. BOOM 400 bucks. that we dont have. so, there goes my .300 whinchester to the pawn shop and our family room tv. and now here we are, with my dad missing in action staying at my aunt who is a drunkard, spending money we dont have, my mom who is having one long nervous break down, my sister who is being her usual bitchy self.

and heres me. caught in the middle of it, about to have my own nervous break down.

so my question is, those of you who have been through similar situations, parents divorcing or somesuch. how do you cope with it? cuase i aint doin so good. the only thing that keeps me going is my writing.

On the other hand, every day is a walking disaster for me, b/c of my extreme obsessive perfectionism.

Tough situation huh....If you are sure that you can't do anything right now, don't dwell too much on it. Someday, probably soon if the situation is as tense as you say, there will be a time where you will be able to do something. Till then don't think about it too much. Again, it sucks but hang in there and don't fall to depression. Its not worth it and most importantly don't give up, the light is darkest just before the dawn (sound corny, but think about it) :)

ive honestly thought of running away, many times, the only thing that keeps me from doing so is a promise i made myself a while ago, come hell or highwater i wont give up my dream, but at times like this my depreshen and bi-polar make it near impossible to do anything but get out of bed. but i do. so thats something. but it always has to be everything not something nothing is good enouge. im doing my best to stay the course and try but it seems damn near impossible at times. im just doing what i can do and trying to take it one day at a time but sometimes even that doesint work. it really... god i dont know, id say it sucks but thats just bitching. its life i guess. and what i keep thinking is this is the make or break moment/time that im being tested to see if i can handle life, and more and more im thinking im going to fail at it .

Hey there's nothing wrong with venting. I can only imagine what it must be like. It's better to let it all out then to hold it in. The fact that you've kept a promise to yourself and aiming for a goal, well that deserves nothing short of respect. Life is road with all sorts of bumps and hills. And it's not something that we can live through alone. Friends and family help us grow and learn from our mistakes. Doing so allows us to become stronger and better people. Have no fear, you have support here.


Edit: feels like I'm preaching >.>