What's keeping you alive?

Hibia!

Super Kawaii Neko Desu Yo~

Wow I didn't expect 2 pages of stuff when I got back from laundry. XD

I'm seeing a lot of people living for other people. I'm pretty sure I'd care a lot more if I thought someone else around me did. Maybe the do and I'm just blind. >.>

Fakku is definitely taking up a lot of my time recently. Mostly the forums. =D

I live because I'm a failure. If I was not a failure and did not hate myself I would have nothing to live for. As long as I continue to feel like a fuck up I can strive to change and have a reason to live.

At least that's how I feel about life,

My ambitions mostly. I want to work hard and become something.
I want to do a lot for my mom too.

I'm not unhappy whatsoever. In my mind when things are hard, it's only showing you have to work harder to get what you need in life.

Plus, I have a nice guy in my life right now ;p keeps me warm at night.

Because how else am I going to become immortal, learn everything, and take over the world?

What is keeping me alive? Possibly the fear that ziggy would kill me if I died. That and I am pretty sure hell isn't filled with prinnies.

I seriously thought abt that too... and really there are times that I just found my self saying "What the fuck is wrong today? something's missing and I can't pinpoint what is it"

And then it will just hit me!

Need to open my lappy, see whats new on the vast world of net
Need to see the Updates on Fakku and my anime site
Need to go to work to earn
Need to see my love ones happy and smiling

Then I'll be back to my daily habit XD These things keep me alive for now, and I've yet to see the other side of my world one of these days

I live to carry out what my loved ones couldn't, and to make sure no one has to suffer as I have, as is my duty as Corpsman.

I realize that I only live to prolong the lives of others, but I can experience things myself as well so in the end....

Isn't that enough?

i live so that one day i can repay(support) my loved ones for what they have and are doing for me.
i live with the hope that someday i will be able to find "the truth"......
i live because i am too curious to see the fucked up things that are going to happen in(to) this world.
i live because i want to become something different from what i am right now(in some ways)
i live because i don't want to give the other persons that hate me the taste of saying "He gave up"(suicide).
these are some of the reasons.......

I DO say "fuck it" when I wake up in the morning. And that's why I stay alive. Death seems like the most boring part of life.

Simple human desires. Is it good enough?

The opportunities that every new day brings. Although my work is rather routine, I am quite sure I will experience and learn new things as long as I look hard enough.

Of course, family and friends are important factors too.

Lastly, my hopes of finding another waifu to add to my harem, preferably in the real world.

Please do explain that one. XD

Your real world harem? Indeed, you have a reason to be alive.

I wish I had a harem. That would be awesome! Then I could rent it out and keep the best ones for meeeee!

I've already said, "fuck it", but can't be arsed to off myself. I'm secretly hoping a bus will solve my problem.

In the mean time: I read books, manga and the news; I watch tv/movies (almost exclusively anime); listen to, write, and play music; play video games; and get out and around the town for exercise, aka skateboarding. I'm not scared of death because before I was alive is about the equivalent to after I was alive. The only reason why it's not the same is because there will still be records of my birth/death and accomplishments (haha!) for a while.

Well I believe that doing something so simple as experiencing things is a reason to live. I mean, having been at the receiving end of it many a time, suicide only fucks your friends' lives up and makes them think about doing the same.

A 4-man fireteam on base off'd themselves within a week of each other because one of their girlfriends was cheating on him. I mean come on, don't take 3 people with you.

Even if you don't want to, it'll always impact someone close to you and give them ideas about going down the same road. Its psychologically unavoidable.

Soo, in summation, a reason I can give anyone to live is what I listed above: For the sake of those close to you. If you have no one close to you, then I apologize, but it also makes my former argument moot, so whatever.

The only thing that makes me get up is... avoiding being attacked with complaints that I stay up too late.

What's keeping me alive?

40% - The future. I'm intrigued everyday by what I see. Every year there's something new that I'd want, and every year I keep wondering what the future might be and what might it look like.

40% - My girlfriend, and hopefully my soon-to-be-wife. And future kids too ^_^

20% - Dreams and aspirations, like being able to travel to at least 70 countries in my lifetime :D