mdarkanima Posts
Realizing I am going to have more spending money available to me for Fanime than I previously thought. Also realizing that starting Thursday I have no work until Tuesday.
Oh.. my god... so much happiness impending. *tear of joy*
Oh.. my god... so much happiness impending. *tear of joy*
Dziękuję! Yeah I'm very very Slavic, I got blessed with the Slavic face and the German height. I'm almost 5'11" and it's awesome, except when I am taller than a lot of guys, then that tends to scare them off O_O lmao
King Dingaling wrote...
You look like one of my friends (are you by any chance European?). Oh yeah, i like "Man in the Box" by Alice in Chains :D
Astute observation sir! I was born and raised in the US but my family heritage is extremely European. I'm like a mutt of different European ethnic backgrounds. Mostly Slavic (Polski) and German/Scottish. :) ^___^
Also randomly took this out of boredom while recording some stuff for my CD. *shrugs* keepin' it.
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Being swamped at work all morning. I couldn't seem to catch up with projects and customers which ends up frustrating me.
Seeing the sheer number of people who liked and commented on my new cosplay/weight loss picture on Facebook. I finally reached my target weight, I'm a size 4 and I am healthier than I've ever been and just the love my friends gave me on Facebook... I dunno I'm not used to that. I teared up a little bit, it's nice when your hard work gets recognized by people you respect.
Putting together my Revy (Black Lagoon) cosplay costume with my new sz 4 shorts. I still can't believe I fit a 4. At least I am ready for Fanime. Image in spoiler if anyone cares lol.
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I used to be very emotionally volatile but depression sort of has a way of blending everything together into this unremarkable blur. I used to let slights and unfortunate events, even particularly sad subjects, affect me deeply. Now it really takes a lot to shock my emotions into reacting.
I am not sure if this is a good or bad thing. The external composure people tend to like, but then again I am also not the most enjoyable person to be around. I suppose you have to take the good with the bad.
I am not sure if this is a good or bad thing. The external composure people tend to like, but then again I am also not the most enjoyable person to be around. I suppose you have to take the good with the bad.
I am more optimistic for the future than anything. The future holds so many different possibilities, both good and bad. The past is unchangeable, but the future is malleable. You might not have complete control over the outcomes of every single aspect of the future, but you still have the ability to wake up one morning and say "I am not happy, I want to change this".
The future holds the potential for improvement, for contentment, for pleasant surprises. I try and not let the fact that I cannot see the future get in the way of my hopes for it.
Then again I DO admit to spending a lot of time fretting and stressing over things that I think are going to happen. Sometimes you just have to let the anxiety take over so that you can move forward. That's not necessarily a bad thing either, that's just life.
The future holds the potential for improvement, for contentment, for pleasant surprises. I try and not let the fact that I cannot see the future get in the way of my hopes for it.
Then again I DO admit to spending a lot of time fretting and stressing over things that I think are going to happen. Sometimes you just have to let the anxiety take over so that you can move forward. That's not necessarily a bad thing either, that's just life.
I am apparently allergic to something (I have no idea what) that I ate in my dinner tonight. I broke out into painful hives and had to discard my entire dinner for fear of making it worse.
I know that pregnant women have a lot of hormones in their body that they're dealing with, in addition to the stress and panic at the thought that they'll soon be pushing out a human from their... nether-regions.
However in my personal experience I've only seen my pregnant friends get into small (frequent) but small arguments. Usually over silly things like "You told me you'd bring home peanut butter and you forgot... why did you forget?!" (true story)
But I'd say if those arguments are ugly you might want to take another look at the relationship and what issues are there, especially before the birth of your child. You should also let her know "Hey, I know you're going through a lot and I couldn't even begin to understand what it's like to have a living human inside me, but could you try and work with me here?"
Because honestly it's hard for you too, you're facing fatherhood and it's definitely easier if your partner and you get along. I couldn't ever see myself saying ugly things to my spouse pregnant, sure I might have emotional episodes, but I would never ever want to say anything hurtful because I just... I dunno... I love him too much and hurting him would hurt me more than it would him.
However in my personal experience I've only seen my pregnant friends get into small (frequent) but small arguments. Usually over silly things like "You told me you'd bring home peanut butter and you forgot... why did you forget?!" (true story)
But I'd say if those arguments are ugly you might want to take another look at the relationship and what issues are there, especially before the birth of your child. You should also let her know "Hey, I know you're going through a lot and I couldn't even begin to understand what it's like to have a living human inside me, but could you try and work with me here?"
Because honestly it's hard for you too, you're facing fatherhood and it's definitely easier if your partner and you get along. I couldn't ever see myself saying ugly things to my spouse pregnant, sure I might have emotional episodes, but I would never ever want to say anything hurtful because I just... I dunno... I love him too much and hurting him would hurt me more than it would him.
