A plea from a desperate soul.

[align=justify][color=green][font=verdana]Nope. She talked to me first, anyway. So... whatever. Besides, who are you to say who someone should talk to or not? That's not your place.

Anyway, onto business. Fine. Since you asked so nicely, I'll tell you the beef I have with you. Quite frankly, you show no respect towards anyone and say whatever the damn well you please without even considering their feelings. You have made many people upset on the forums - countless numbers exasperated by the sheer lack of sense you make. Have you ever read yourself after you've posted something on the forums? Try it sometime. Come back to me if you do understand any of it after a few months since you posted it.

But, that's not the problem - I mean, many people don't speak English fluently on here, so it's forgivable (nevermind the fact that you should know English fluently, so you shouldn't make less sense than everyone else on the forums). No, the problem is that you always twist people's words to make you the innocent victim in every mistake you cause.

Example No.1) In the VoE thread, you wanted to try out for Tiny Star and apply for the VoE as well. Great, that's simple enough. So, I told you the basics - that Tiny Star is Meno's project, therefore it has no effect on the VoE audition. That's a very simple concept to understand. However, what did you say? You accused me of picking only certain people to be in the VoE and that you could only be part of projects but not the VoE as a whole. That is complete bullshit. So, I corrected you. I stated it again in much simpler terms. You then fly off the handle completely, throwing insult after insult around. I just give up, as I know you're not going to listen to anything I say. However, when Circe says the exact same thing moments later, you suddenly accept everything she says. What in fucking fuck is that about? Just because I don't like you it doesn't mean I'm not going to be civil to you when it comes to the VoE - unlike you, I do have standards in those regards. So, don't always think that things I say are out to ostracise you from everyone. It's a real great way to look paranoid.

Example No. 2) Again, to do with the VoE, this time Circe's turn to try and talk sense into you. This led off from the above example, to be fair. Anyway, hooray for you. You got the details off Circe about the auditions. Terrific. You then audition. Circe even allows you the option to enter a Cold Read in the short future, just to try and make you get less shy, open up and just relax around us. I mean, as I said above, I really am a civil guy mostly, and if you were to join the VoE, you'd need to get used to me and get even more used to actually listening to what I say and ask you to do. I mean, I am an editor for the VoE.

Anyway... there's a slight delay - Circe forgets to provide feedback. She does have other things to do, funnily enough. But not to you, Miss Queen of the Universe. It was a deliberate action against you. She did it on purpose to disrespect you, in your eyes. Now, if you really knew Circe, you'd know she's not like that. Maybe if you were more considerate of her, rather than pick her up and put her down like a ball, you'd realise that. So, you then officially declare us not your friends (although, seriously, my name as well? I never never tried having, wanted, or needed you as a friend.). Of course, as Circe tries to settle problems as soon as they occur (perhaps something you'd do well to employ), she got into contact with you. But, surprise surprise, twisting of words come into play. You now state that you never had any intention of joining the VoE and that you're "standing by your decision". I'm sorry... but you never said jackshit to Circe about this at all. Going from wanting to and asking to join in the VoE thread to this?

Oh wait, this gets even better. You then insinuate to Circe that she's a bad friend because she doesn't let you into the VoE because you're her friend. That... that just really took the biscuit. Number 1) The VoE has rules that all members abide by - why should you be any different? Number 2) Being friends doesn't hide the fact that, in the past groups, you never did your lines when asked. Ever. You'd always run away whenever someone asked you about them. How can we trust you now - much less so that you're asking to be simply let in, at any rate. Number 3) You clearly have a problem with me, and I wouldn't want you to screw up my projects due to that. Number 4) That's insulting Circe directly by thinking that she would even be like that - Circe is professional in that regard. Number 5) How do you think the other member's would react if you simply walked in, whereas they had to audition?

Example 3) I remember one time in the past... a long time ago... someone said something about a relationship you were/were not in. Okay. Fair enough. Now, I didn't say anything at all - all I said was basically "Ah, I see."; you took that as if I was agreeing with what this person said and before I even had chance to say anything, you typed some random shit in Skype and blocked me. Great. Talk about running away from your problems. In fact... this issue was never, ever solved. I daresay it's the very foundations of our current mutual feelings toward each other at the moment. Do you see what happens if you don't solve your issues? People get bitter by it... they grow tired of it. They don't want to have to deal with it all the time when you're happy to do so.

Example 4) You clearly have no meaning of the word "hypocrisy". You can do whatever you like to people and they have to accept it whereas when others try things with you, you don't like it. I have seen it on Skype countless times. You'd get in a massive fit, go on a blocking spree and then after you've "forgiven" them, you add them back. However... what if the boot's on the other foot? What then? Oh, that's right... you get really angry and defensive about it. You ask them to unblock you and stuff and act like nothing's happened. Well, I'm sorry Koko (that's right, I said your name. Sue me), but the world does not and WILL NOT play to your tune. You need to give them the same time and space that they afforded you. Don't harass them.

Example 5) Another argument we had on Unsaid Thoughts in the past. It is related to Example 3), but warrants its own point. This is the kinda shit I'm talking about. You never once tried to talk to me directly about sorting the issues we had with each other. I suddenly get a message from someone saying that "Koko has gone off on one in Unsaid Thoughts. You should reply to it". So, I did. Admittedly, I wasn't very pleasant, but let's face it, you didn't exactly deserve it after what you had done. I tried - again - to reason with you, but as always and always since, you just latch onto minor points and ignore the majority of what I say. It's in one ear and out of the other. You just like throwing out insults as well. A Koko response is never complete without the good ol' casual insult dotted around the post.

Example 6) My graduation. Now, this is only a minor point, but it perfectly reflects what I mean. I casually said in a call about how my Uni has an online viewing of my graduation so any potential friends and relatives abroad or away could watch it. I extended this possibility to a couple of people in the call - people close to me and people who might be interested in seeing me graduate. This isn't anything exciting... but it would be nice just knowing that they're watching. I mean, graduation is an important step in my life. However, you just -had- to say something like "Yeah, give it to me as well, so I can just swear at you whilst I watch you" or something. Now, I didn't really give a shit about this (I honestly couldn't care less about what you do), it's still a mark of your immaturity and how you say what you want without considering anyone else at all. I mean, would I even give it to you? Of course not. You're not someone special in my life who I would want to see me graduate. And, really, haven't you given it a rest against me yet? I don't give the blindest fuck about what you do and say, so why can't you extend me the same courtesy? Just... leave me the fuck alone sometimes?

I have many other examples here, but this are the most poignant at the moment. I'm sure many others in the forums know all about what I'm talking about - especially examples 3) and 4).

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