Irrational Desires

Dreams change over time and so I've come to the realisation that mine have as well.

My main aspiration of being a web designer is still there as I can take a course in college later in the year to buff my skills up to industry standards but game design I believe is out of reach for me now, I failed to get into university this year due to the sizes of classes being reduced and don't want to add a year to the +3 years it will take me for the return salary at the end of studying.

Same with settling down with someone and living a peaceful life with her is the same as well, doesn't matter where in the world it is as long as we're both comfortable with where we live, would still like to live closer to the country than the cities, somewhere with a nice bit of land, a few pets wouldn't go amiss either.

But now I think found the person I want to settle with. maybe even a dream come true. I can see this new relationship staying for a long time, I may have found someone who I can spend my life with, if she feels the same way in the future, It's still early times but it feels like months.

Live in a foreign country, where I would spend my days and relax.

An irrational dream.. would be for me to become an entertainer/celebrity of some sort. I still cherish that dream but I think I'm already too old by now..

to have an onii-chan

I was reminded of this desire after watching Perfume's performance of "Edge" from the Triangle tour.
I know this is highly unlikely.
But I want to be able to dance for events.
I love dancing.
And just to be a dancer on a stage to show off my moves or to get into dancing routines for shows (and the dancing actually being the type I'm excellent at), would be amazing.

Nocchi's dancing also really inspires me. And the Edge dance routine is one I'd really enjoy performing.
For those who are curious...

Spoiler:

When I was younger, I had a lot of the hopes / dreams that fell into the category you described in the op of this post. Nowadays though I am *very* realistic, and try to remain as grounded as I can. As far as I'm concerned, if you want something bad enough, and are willing to work for it, you have an excellent chance of achieving it.

Be with the 100% perfect girl and have an awesome relationship where nothing ever goes wrong.
Having my dreams come true without working my ass off every day.

To be professional Boxer.

I've always held an irrational desire to own a house full of books. It's not feasible since I don't have that kind of storage space but I keep every book I buy or read, even if I hate it.

All I want is to be financially stable. I want to be able to afford to eat, get married, and have a child. That last ones pretty costly though. ^_^;;;

Having my interests meet with High paying Jobs. I wanna get a supercar in the future, and meet someone who can understand me. I wish I also had emotions, somehow I killed it a long time ago. Now I'm somehow antisocial :V

To be a Private military contractor without having to pass that stupid SF qualifications, whilst making tons of money while sitting in the hot desert or guarding scientists and researchers in Antarctica.

Another thing is to work as a Political Analyst in top Think-Tanks across the globe, namely CSIS without the need of stupid recommendations, and if I'm lucky enough, I'll also work in the CIA as a Counter-Terrorism expert, lecturing SAD operators and reading tons of books.

up until recently I was hoping to finding a girlfriend but now after my 9th turn down I renounce to love and/or fall in love
although I think secretly I still want to have a girlfriend

That's not an irrational desire. Nearly everybody desires love and companionship.

Joining the SAS without the need to go through the tests and recommendations. if you've seen the documentary (which i'm sure you haven't) then you'd understand why this is impossible

Make IB a better place to live and post.

That i'll get off my lazy ass and get in shape...haha like that will ever happen...ugg -_-

+combined with hard work.



I don't think that's an irrational desire =) With the right muse, stimulus and catalyst...you can get there pretty quickly.

Mine was similar, it was to find true love and my path in life...

I wanted to do something that I'm passionate about, get paid a lot of money, and help create a better world in the process...and all my life, my parents told me to abandon those hopes. "Doesn't matter what you like, just get good grades, go to a good university, get a stable job and settle down with a nice girl, have kids and etc..."

Just hearing that made me sick to the stomach and angry. I think in the end, it really fuelled me to become unyielding and to get things done, no matter what it takes. At one point, I had a mini-meltdown because everyone seemed to be telling me that I'm delusional. In that moment, I made a ridiculous decision. I just decided that I was going to have what I wanted. I had no idea how I was going to get it...but it was going to happen because that is what I have decided lol. First, I had to move away and block out all the noise.

I wasn't attracting the kind of girls I liked, so I took a look at the 'why'...it was me, I was just unattractive to my kind of girl. I did what it took to get that handled...after 2 years of grinding, I got what it takes.

Next, I examined what it took to get the job I wanted. To get paid a lot of money, I needed to have a valuable skill that can make a a lot of money. I thought about which 'talent' I can develop to get that skill. I loved card games, I was pretty pro at any that I picked up...poker seemed like a great idea, studied it intensely, practiced day and night. I got pretty good, I won often...except when I entered higher stakes, it felt like I was going to have a heart attack. Had to ditch the poker idea and pursue the next one.

I ended up developing this really obscure 'talent', I found out that this was responsible for everything that I'm good at. I started consciously developing it and focusing it on making money. I'm not even close to making the amount that I want...but, I'm getting there.

The one last 'irrational desire' I have is to create better world. I have a detailed plan, but it's irrational at this point because...it's going to take place in the distant future and a lot of things can change.