So, what should I do now?

There's a card that I can play in this situation that you really don't want me to. So nut up and be a hero, goddamnit.

I have spoken.

you better obey your parent as long as your with them

... seriously? Her mother just CUT her for the most fucking trivial reason ever, and you want him to still keep obeying that?! There was no care or actual punishment to make him better in any way, either! I talk to the guy: this woman is nothing but spite and malice! He needs to get out of there before the only place he WILL be escaping to us an obituary!

Right, I'm stupid enough to listen to that, Suki?

@Art: I've never really tried having a bus ride on my own... ._.

And I'm not sure if I'm gonna be going for that job, either. I'll be thinking about it, though.

I had something like another fight with ex-mom, through words this time. I think she's planning to kick me outta the house herself this time.

Stop getting and waiting for advice on internet, get off it. Go talk to ur friends, relatives, teachers, neighbors, therapist, psychiatrist, police officers, weird guy next door, whatever. Anyone that actually talk face to face that can ACTUALLY help or willing to help. Dont get advice on the internet, ur wasting ur time.

Did you know that on one like that are here? There aren't any. There just isn't. This is Bangladesh, people aren't the helping type. They care too much about staying the fuck away from people with actual problems.

Only a few people are sane.

You don't understand anything. Perhaps it would have been better to not make this thread.

First off, she is not my mother. Fuck that fact, because I don't care anymore. Just because I say so. Once you decide to never accept it, facts doesn't even matter anymore.

Second, she doesn't listen. She goes on with her traditional nonsense. It's not the first time that she doesn't listen or understand, either. It's been over countless times. She's insane, and she's slowly making me insane, too.

Now, she's planning to send me off to Darjeeling (whatever campus they have in there with harsh environment), problem is; it'll happen under her palms, that's not the same as getting away from her forever, which is something I'll somehow pull off... one day, if I can't get anyone's help, from any people, it doesn't matter. I'll end my life - by myself. It's the only way to escape this crazy world that I'm living in.

This was the conclusion I faced on January this year, but people urged me tough it out till something would be possible to do about it. What did that lead to? More of this crap.


EDIT: Ugh, now that I read my own response myself, I feel rude for speaking that way. I'm sorry...

Edit 02: Don't chicken out and delete your post lol.

Dear Cinia Pacifica,

;~; I'm very sorry to hear about the hardships in your life. I hope things turn around. I'm just a stranger, but I hope that what little words I can say will help you even in the slightest. This is just what I believe...

"Is this something that a mother would do? Do they even do that?"

There is no such thing as a "normal" mother. Some don't physically abuse their children, but treat them like crap or neglect them. I'm sure that there are some people that believe that being abused is better than being forgotten... Yes, some mothers do abuse their children, and some don't. Everyone's life is completely unique.

"Should I disregard it after considering the fact that this is a good experience or something? Should I be happy that I'm gonna be get scar in my hand? Or what?"

I believe every experience in life is supposed to create strength and promote growth, though it doesn't make what happened OK. Yes, this happened, no, it's not okay, no, it doesn't feel good, and yes, it's very sad and it would've been better if it didn't happen.

In the end, you must release all negativity. Exhale it, let it go... It's finished now. If you analyze exactly what happened, exactly how you felt, what was going on- remember it. It's your experience. It will change you in a good way if you allow it to.

The scar shouldn't be a reminder of a terrible thing that's happened. Perhaps, for example, the scar shall be a reminder that you've survived another day, that you've overcome another obstacle with LOVE rather than hatred; that you've decided that you're not going to be like your mother by destroying others, and more importantly, yourself.

And from love, the ideal weapon of choice, maybe that love can plant a seed in your mother's heart just by being near you... a seed that blooms and blossoms and helps her shake off the shackles she's placed upon herself, even just a little.

She may be redirecting anger and frustration out on you. What may be causing this anger and frustration could be caused from many things; From financial troubles to her not having overcome some issues in her life.

I believe it's good to come to terms with what has happened throughout your whole life, and especially to go over each day's events (simple or complicated!). Watch your whole day's movie every day before bed (and your life's memories once in a while). You may laugh, you may cry (a lot), and some people wonder why they're still alive. But in the end we must feel love, and feel that it has made us stronger, and better people. These experiences are engraved into our being. Let go of that negative feeling and feel the flow of happiness, of love- because that's what we're here to feel.

What should you do?

If ever a situation appears where your life is threatened, you must be careful. Only you know what the right thing to do is.... I don't know your life and I can't tell you any good answer (sorry ;~;). I'm just a stranger.

BUT...

Finding a job and trying to support yourself is a good start. Get your resume built, get all your information together, run out there and apply apply apply. I'm sure there'll be a phone call with a job opening if you try hard enough! :)

If you're ever down from the jobhunting and you need a boost of confidence, spend time alone and watch your life's movie. Let go all of the pain/struggle/negativity, exhale it, and with each inhale you breathe in light and love and you'll be able to see clearer.

It's hard to see the light in the darkness, but once you're down there's only one way you can go !! :D!

Rise, I don't know how or when... but it'll get better. I know we may not be bros, but I truly do feel your pain. Seriously.

But if you die, that psychotic bitch wins and I simply can't have that.

You need to ask her straight out why she does this and try to reason with her. If that doesn't work you need to beat the shit out of her. If you can't overpower her in a fair fight you strike her in the head while she got her back turned to you.

Then you get a job and live somewhere else.

In this case, two wrongs will get Rise killed...

Plus, I don't think Rise's mum is the only problem...

I take offence to this statement, motherfucker. >:T

Also, who deleted his post?

This is why I said only a few people are sane, if you wanna put yourself up with the insane, I have no problem with that. =P

Typlosion.

On the bright side of your mother getting you out of there by herself, you'll at least be far from her physically.

Once you manage to get a job you can start saving money to get out of the country. It might not be so hard to try to get out for study or by getting a job somewhere else too. Canada for example is a country that WANTS more immigrants, so they don't make it too hard to get in.

If it gets too bad it might be possible to get in another country as a refugee too, don't know much about how that works, though.

Only bad side is that it has to be a country that speaks english, otherwise you'll need to wait till you learn another language. Some countries that don't have english as language are hell easy to get into (and certainly better than Bangladesh). The one I live in (Brazil) doesn't have much regulations about people getting in, they probably don't even bother checking it too much either. Our country even has a record for protecting criminals that came from other countries and not letting them go. Its a bad one too, but at least much better to be in while you get more time to go for another, just as an example.

Hmm... If your mum is already talking about kicking you out, you may want to try to do whatever it takes to get kicked out.

I suggest having some sort of weapon or makeshift shield on your person at all times, though. You obviously need to defend yourself.

Then, once she kicks you out.. do what 42 said and work on saving up money to get out of that place for good.

Seems like she said all that about Darjeeling out of anger. -____-

They're not progressing that plan anymore. I need to push it up somehow. Also, that Darjeeling place is a kind of a large campus in India. I know and understand the language but I don't speak it.

Stand up to her and reason with her about why you are not the problem.

Make it clear that you have no bad intentions and that you wish no problem, and if she doesn't accept that then I suggest you get out of there and start living your life.

This shit is way too deep to be called a "Minor Problem".

If this calls for desperate measures such as leaving and such then do it, no use in trying to change a person's way of behavior.

Kind of obvious to me that such a thing would never work.

Currently. People wants to actually help me out. There are some problems though...

You can do it!